ignorance is bliss

2010-01-12T20:55:00.006+08:00

SCHOOL COMMENCE!

and.. a new headstart!
these few days.. or should i say 2 weeks of MIA from my blog. lots and lots of changes to my current life!
i've coverted part time in my groomer job and now.. Im earning $70 per day!
boss told me i've improve alot on my grooming and thus, increment of $20! so weekdays are my schooling days and weekends are my working days. =) in fact i can earn $560 just by working 8 days a month! sweet~

II;
back to school.

thou i have to crawl out of my dreamy bed 530 am in the early morning...
there was never 1 moment i regretted making this choice and i strongly believe this passion of becoming a nurse will continuing burning throughout my life =D
it has been 1 week 2 days in school and lecturers are in fact noticing my school work and good performance.^^
but it's all thanks to ms kim, my biology teacher back in secondary school days. taught us alot of things in depth and i have no problems cooping with it at all. LOL*
but i wont let this get over me and will take it as a revision too.
my buddies in class are all of my age though majority are 16, 17 yrs old chaps. teaching them caused me so much headaches.. be it academically or lifeskills. hopefully they wont make the same mistakes like me but afterall.. i guess it's inevitable.. as humans... learning thru all the setbacks.

III;
MY NEW DIGITAL CAMERA!

went to courts for a stroll and decided to buy a new digicam as vincey always wanted to take quality pictures.. and crystal can lighten it's load and fully concentrate on being my phoney.. hahah!
i hope this will put to a good use next month for our overseas trip dardar! ^^
initially i never ever thot of olympus as my full focus was on sony new slim range. but the promoter was really helpful and told me quality is better den design. as tat's wad a digicam is intended for..
he compared this with even nikon and canon and the wide screen function really impressed me. =) moreover it's lightweight, user friendly, ergonomics and not at all bulky =d

IV;
relationship with dardar has never been affected even due to my packed schedules.
he is the most understanding boyfriend i ever had! hughug*
im very apologetic to our postpone overseas trip last weekend.. =(
i know im a workaholic, very focus in school and family..
it may seem i dun give u as much but rest assured im doing this all for the benfits for our future tgt!
and.. its officially 2 more months to ur ORD!
soon.. u'll be studying for ur diploma and embark on ur journey!
i'll always be by ur side.. lock our hands tgt! muacckk-x

2009-12-22T13:57:00.004+08:00

i haven't been blogging for a good 6 days!
had been tired from working and miscellaneous things..
ytd jaff had something on and couldn't come for work and only me and boss to tackle those doggies! oozy was here in the early morning and can see boss' face was lyk a black cloth. hahahs! oozy is a cross breed of alaskan malamute and siberian husky whom undercoat can stuff into 10 pillows. XD
i reached wrkplace and whilst chnaging the bedding of boarding kennel dogs, i got scratched by the thin metal edges of the tray.. it hurts every now and den especially when in contact with water and soap. but its still okay.. until i was dealing with a papillion.
boss warned me tat it is not at all friendly as it has wary eyes. when i took my blades from the shelves, the dog was in front of me and thou i took caution, but his attack was too fast! oh my dear god! it was the worst bite i had ever received from a dog.
his bite was ruthless...
my fourth finger was bleeding profusely and dripped evrywhr on the floor. boss saw the blood and thot i nose bleed. wtf?! hahahs.. den he saw my finger and said faster go pour qing cao oil. i say dun wan cus upon contact with open wounds with tat medicated oil, the pain is even unbearable. but he say im grown up liao bite also can tahan nv faint so it shouldn't be a prob for me.
as i poured the oil, tears really formed on my eyes luh... i can still feel tat moment now..
bleeding has receeded and boss prohibit me from bathing dogs and touching water.. woah~ i felt so touched! he really cares alot for his workers. =DD so for tat entired day i just scissor and shaves dogs and he did all the showering for me.
we managed to clear all the appt dogs on time w/o jaff ard. =)
when we were abt to close grooming room, we had a walk in customer wanted to trim her cat's nails. den i carry it in.. and yes.. tat's when i've receieved another 'love' bite.. i kinda expected it cus it was a non-pedigree.. those u'll find on the road sides. the cat's bite was less painful;, cus it had sharp teeth compared to dog's blunt and round ones. as dogs apply force, the whole tooth punctured into the flesh. tat cat was a really cute one, it refused to let go of my thumb and bite on to it as if my finger was a mousie.. == den i went to stop the bleeding.. again. this time i didn't pour tat oil.

and i regretted it latr on..

i pass chloe boss' daughter xmas' present to boss and told him to pass to her cus she didn't come over.. hope she'll lyk the personalised keychain i've bought. =)

vincey came over to yishun and waited for me and we headed to northpoint to eat teppanyaki! 1st time im having this and the fun part is seeing ur food get cooked and served in front of u.. the dishes was just so-so only somehow tat chef didn't really put much effort. looked as if he wanted to get done with it asap.
after our dinner we headed to amk hub.. omw there my wound started to ache and itch at the same time den i swallowed 2 paracetamol. X( hope it get bettr by wed..
guess wad? dardar bought bodyguards and assasins movie tickets at 2215! shi yue wei chen! such a nice show! i'll give it full rating =) apart from it being v educational of china's histories the whole show was so captivating somehow i dun even wan to blink and miss a single detail of it.
oh yeah, finally 1 bad point is they actually censored a part of the show.. =( dinno wad happen to him...

finally its home sweet home..
and i wont be meeting up dar for a week as we are both busy with our own stuffs.. gonna miss u truck loads!!

just now.. boss called me and asked how am i feeling.. did i hav a fever and so on.. am i so fortunate to have so many ppl concerning about me! jaff called also and asked me to take care and such =)

life gonna get better day by day! Thank God! im so blessed ('V')

2009-12-16T01:29:00.002+08:00

faith aka lil' monster new homey!
got this cage from my boss shop ^^ retailing at $368 but boss sold me at only $288. great bargain.
she was so shocked at first upon exploring her new residence. hahah* her big red sparkling eyes looking at me.. as if saying; owner is this an early x'mas present for me mahh? lol*
this cage is almost standing at 1.4m tall. mummy screamed at me.. so big! wahahah. faith likes it den im happy liaos.
tmr im gonna have a new cupboard bed frame and a new computer chair. am so anticipating for it! too bad i have to go work mus wait till evening den can re decorate my room. when sher's back from taiwan she'll be damn high~
ytd had an heated argument with dardar. and i nearly gave up on our r/s. glad tat vincey hold on and we manage to salvage it after talking things out peacefully.
just nw we met up and had kway chap for dinner! yummys~ my all time favourite. thurs i wonder whr should we go... to ice skate? to k box? to watch movie? shopping? sighs. so many things to do so little tym. =(((((
after jan thk im gonna be even more busier. boss dun allow me to quit! HHelppp~
wad choice do i have to stay and help them? lol*

2009-12-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

woots! today is myy off day! gotta draw out how my new layout of my room ^^ my new furnitures will be in next wed! so excited*

ytd nyte, dardar suprised me with 2 movie tickets! Storm warriors II
we went for dinner at hongkong restaurant at amk hub. the food is lyk so-so lo. cus i dun really lyk tat cuisine. mostly are sweet and sour.. tat used to be my favouryte when im young. nw im more fond of plain food lyk soups.

Storm warriors II;
kinda a disappointment thou.. as the show should be more to cloud and wind fighting against the evil king but turns out the climax is actually the brothers killing one and another. v sad ending.. cloud sacrfices himself and fell off the cliff.. awww~ hopefully he wont die and am anticipating for III. nevertheless, the fighting scenes and graphics was 2 thumbs up.
but! the movie is too short. gave me a feeling lyk quite a bit of rush luh.. should hav elaborate more.. sighs*
after tat we went home and dardar told me he dun feel lyk slping den we talked on msn till dawn and met up again for breakfast at lor 1 market! 5.30 am.. hohoho* den see dar off .. sad he had to go back to camppyy.

spend half of my day today iin lala land.. woke up den watch autumn's concertoo.. its a nuarr day. my friends called and jio-ed me out for movie.. Storm warriors.. lol! but too late. next week den meet them bahh, for avatar!

hmm hmm, gg out nw..
gotta buy some groceries and meet mummy and dad for dinner. guess sher wont be hm again 2nyte.. tsk tsk.

2009-12-09T00:26:00.004+08:00

last week;

watched the twilight saga new moon with vinceyy! althou its a 2 and half hrs long movie but i was enjoying every sec of it. ('V')

dardar liked the movie too! im gonna buy the novel.. hope the next series will come out soon..

went for a ceramic perm few days ago and i did 2 treatments cus the damage is really taxing on my hair. as it was bleach, highlighted and rebonded b4. =p

the curls are still kinda tight nw and will only lossen after 1 week. sad case is i had to snip away 3 inch of my hair to prevents split ends. sighs*

just nw after work, met up with darllx and we headed for amk, initially wanting to catch mulan but last min popped ot 2 dogs for grooming. damn sad-ed. next time slot was 11pm. zZz(-.-)

den we went for dinner instead. on our way there, my shoe strap broke. NICE ONE. i rmr nt wearing tat shoe for more den 2 times. and was bought recently.. bo bian but to shop for a new one.

had our dinner! scrumptious satays and dar had his mee soto! i ordered mutton beef and chicken. and darllx was asking me y dun hav fish satay. =.=

den on our way to the bus stop, we saw 2 parrots. talking non-stop. and yes, talking! as in v fluently; continously saying how are you? hello, and ni hao ma? lol. such cutey pies. den i reach out my hand and say hello, and suprisingly he gave me his too! awww~ kawaii ne! i thot only doggies know how to shake hands.. now even parrots know. hohoho.. wads more when i was abt to leave, i say bye and he actually replied me bye bye too! i know he's just mimicking but the timing is so right. kekekeks.

nice day so far. tmr gonna wake up at 7.30 and meet boyfriend for breakfast ouh. hipefully i can wake up =p

janaaaa~!

Girlfriend LOVE Boyfriend to bits!

2009-11-30T22:32:00.004+08:00

had the most tiring day at work on sat;

tat i throw mc and joined dardar on his relatives birthday cum his mum's chalet. i missed the fun part on sat nyte.. sighs. sun was quiet as most had left. but tat equals to more private time with dardar. =D u know, i know.

but didn't really had a good nyte rest.. had a bunch of noisy neighbour which is his brother and 5 monkey friends. =x

monday;

really sad tat dar had to go back camp for tat bo liao recall. early in the morning at 5am had to book in. den i cant sleep too so packed up the stuffs so later dar's mum wont need to do too much work.

dar came back to meet us at ard 11am den we headed to escape theme park with them! really kudos to his mummy as she dares to ride on the pirate ship and so steady on the go-kart. hahahs*i had 2 rides on pirate ship; once on the middle row and on the extreme side. by then i was numb-ed. tat left me with headache till now. cant deny tat im old liao. lol*

we left the theme park 1st and headed to amk hub for movie.. again. Ninja Assassin! Rain's acting was good. natural and cool. =) thou this movie is so bloody but better den jennifer's body and halloween II.

after movie, we were both dead tired due to lack of slp..

dar is fast aslp right now and i'll join him soon in lala land. zZzz(-.-)

to vincey with love;

i'll be by ur side healing u and bringing a smile to ur face. i hope u can fully let go of the past. if i can do it, u can too. =) thou we are just tgt for 1 month 8 days but i truly felt tat i can entrust myself to u.

counting down;

3 months to ur ord and 1 month to my school life. way to go~ ^^

je t' aime vinceyy. ("V")

2009-11-24T01:01:00.006+08:00

had a loving day with dardar today!

im falling so deeply with u as days goes by too! muacks~!

went to dardar's hse for the 1st time today and nice environment. except for the bustling traffic outside. lol*

saw dardar's younger brother. dun really look alike worh. dardar more handsome ^^

browse thru photo albums; tons of them. almost every single one of them had his photo.

cute and chubby ouhh~ hohoho.

next stop; amk hub. (movie go-er nowadays =d)

watched paranormal activity!! at 1st it was plain boring and the video recording makes me feel dizzy. but toward the mid part, real stranges things was happening and it was unbelievable.. the girl got dragged out of the bed and all the way out from the bedroom outside! by nothing!! omgawd*

this is the part which freaks me out the most. imagine getting dragged by an invisible force halfway in ur sleep? eww* thumbs up to this movie, but somehow i hoped it was man-made. cus the ending is real sad. sighs* the girl's bf was killed by her as she was possessed by the demonic force. he was flunged from nowhere and smashed into the video recorder. had the shock out of my life siol. =/

rated: 3.5 stars

my new ipod nano!! just bought it today ouh. its a silver one but i bought a pink dress for her.

dar's one is black. but mine got a built-in video camera.

envious bahh vincey? =ppppppppp

am going to configure it now! so janaaaaa~ <3

2009-11-22T02:30:00.003+08:00

im still awake! lol*
changed my off days to mon. so i dun hav to worry if im too tired for work later. =)
had a relax saturday at work. again, its nearing month end and ppl's pocket is depleting.
today had a minor argument at work.
not me but jaff and boss.
jaff wanted to get a 5 days leave for a trip to bangkok. but the dates are 29 dec till 03 jan. clash with xiuxiu off day and new year day. plus im nt around to help out. so it wasn't approved.
however, i voluntered to go back to work and help out, cus in this shop we dun have annual leave nor sick leave.
after this argument, after jaff left for home, they all bad mounthed her luh. feel real sad. even the one who appears to be 'friendly'.
sighs* eating mac now from home delievery! yummy.
off to mam mam.

merry 1st month to dear vinceyy~ lovelove!

2009-11-21T00:47:00.004+08:00

a sweet gift from bbie for our 1st month tgt!

so awfully touched upon receiving it ^^ he took it out from nowhere and really suprises me. hahahs.

just wanted to blog abt this, off to bed now. am going to fight a war at work tmr! weekend~!

2009-11-20T01:10:00.004+08:00

today;

was a busy and rush day.

had a hectic morning, kept me busy but im glad i had something to do. =)

met up with vincey to work out at bishan gym. initially wanted to swim.. rainy weather the whole day.

saw david at the gym too with his gf. long time nv see.. he is still the same.. none of my business anyways, just felt like commenting on it. lol*

after gym, we wanted to catch the movie 2012. headed to amk hub.. but tickets were sold out. earliest timing was 9.45pm.. and the movie is 157 mins long.

den we checked other cathay cinemas. and booked the one at the grand cathay cineplex, 9pm.

woahs..

tat cinema was a damn awesome one. ultra big screen with the best audio and plenty of seatings. plus power packed air con.

regarding the movie..

its somehow out of the ordinary. unlike the other movies which u can somehow predict the ending. its good =)

today isn't wasted tat's all i can say. hahahahs.

i'll definitely go back to grand cathay to watch any other movie ^^

janaa~ <3

2009-11-17T00:58:00.005+08:00

first of all;
wished all the best to them. have a healthy chubby baby and happiness filled their life. =))

dardar; i need u now.
ur now in ur lala land. =(
sorry for spending so less time with u.
u kept on compromising to me till im feeling damn bad. real bad.
seriously,
u'll nv know how much i appreciate u...
afterall, i seem to be nonchalant.
however i use this time to show the world i really cherish u and i love u, vince <3

carefully planning my every step from now.
knowing myself better day after day. hopefully heaven can lend a hand, dun play tricks on me ever again.
am tired.. somehow.
but i kept telling myself never to give up however sucky my life is.

im sure the sun will penetrate thru my window and warm my heart once again. with u around; im no longer alone. =)

2009-11-15T23:39:00.004+08:00

ytd i did many wrong things at work;
the culprit is my thumb.
at 1st its just a small swell. i thot it was just an infection and it'll go away by itself but aftr 1 week it got painful.. sighs. took a day mc and went to consult a doc. the doc told me unless i get 1 week off to leave it to heal if not it wont get better.
for these few days i cant hold my scissors properly.. make me really fed up and such.
sigh* thankfully i've got an understanding boss. =)
real shag now. i'll tuck in bed early.

2009-11-10T01:58:00.003+08:00

today;
i've finally build up the courage to let boss know about my plan.
texted him and was anticipating a scolding or a negative comment.
however.
he says he'll respect my decision and hopes i'll continue to work for him in the week ends after my school start.
i agreed w/o even a hesitation althou im not supposed to as stated in the prev contract.
just let things go by its flow. no point brooding over things tat may not happen.
even if alvin really wanna pursue this matter, im sure i'll be able to deal with it.
=))

2009-11-08T01:00:00.005+08:00

hello raintears;

here im blogging again.

shan't start from whr i left off as it's gonna be a long grandmother tale.

but! have to say about my date with dardar on friday~

firstly we went to outram and trying to find the blood donation drive. and it's such a warm weather. walked from outram to chinatown den back again but no sight of tat building. den we saw the national health care building quite a distance away. instincts told me to go check it out and dardar was lyk telling me to go another day, go home check out the location 1st.

UR SO LAZY vincee* hahahs. but when im determined to do something i'll just do it on tat exact day. if not i'll itch.
finally hard 'walk' pays off and we found HSA. registered for it and when it was my turn for a health screen, i was questioned alot. sianns. cus i had a surgery performed a few months back. whether i had any blood transfusion blah blah blah.

anyways i've passed!

when it was our turn for the donation, the nurse clean my elbow joint and placed a gaze over. after a minute, den she approached with a tiny needle. guess tat's an anesthetic injection.

next she use a hollow needle abt 0.5 cm in similar of the tongue piercing needle and shoved into my vein. hmm, tat doesn't hurt at all as the area is numb. so please donate blood. =))

dardar was really brave! at 1st when i told him to go with me he sounds skeptical and i nv thot he will volunteered too. love ya~ ^^

my process was a slow one, when dardar was done with his, mine was still less den 1/4. =( sadly enough, im not eligible for apheresis donation. sighs* stupid tiny vein of mine. useless.

after the whole process we went vivo wanted to catch 2 movies, either 2012 or my girlfriend is an agent. but none of it are showing at vivo. pissed off* and we watched jennifer's body instead. not a bad show. =) 4 stars i would rate it.

as for the tiny details of our day, i shall not elaborate. hahahahs

today at work;

was a real dreadful one.

luckily i cant control my temper well, if not i would have taken my bag and left the shop. boss likes to criticise; and this time it's really not my fault. so im really angry. i dump the dog to a corner and drink ice cold water to calm down. took the next appointment dog and ignored him. den he come and talk to me nicely and make me laugh. say why i trim the dog's leg look like drumstick. it is not a chicken..... i-d-i-o-t sebastian.

anyways i cant stay there for long. will be leaving end of dec. fucking ex employer and his so-called contract rules.

in order not to get sue by him i had to compromise. it's all written black and white. verbal agreement at tat time ain't gonna help me a single bit.

my planning!

will be joining N level intake to simei ite for nursing. yeaa, finally decided to go into this line after 2 yrs of consideration.

am going to score full pointer for all my modules. if i can do it in my previous course, i dun see why i cant now. unless im old liaos.

lee kuan yew award im coming!

after attachment, i'll be applying for 2nd yr in nyp. 1 more yr of studying and attachment, i'll be getting my diploma in 4 yrs time from now. if all is going smoothly and i get good grades, i may get sponsored to go UK to pursue for a bachelor.

im dreaming big now. it just gets me going. =))

tat's all for today, gonna chat with my bbie ^^

2009-10-30T02:09:00.005+08:00

accompanied dardar to watch MJ This is it.

im not a fan of him but there's no doubt he is splendid; in terms of dance or vocals. additonally, i feel tat he doesn't put on airs. treated everyone in his team well and such.

earlier in the afternoon;

went to haji lane!

smoke shisha in peach mint. 1st tym trying it and not too bad =)

but after a period of tym i started coughing. afterall its many tyms more harmful den cigarettes..... and it was when i've received a text from my previous boss. he wanted me back in his shop.. sighs. when im so happy in fur friends den was 'welcomed' by his so-called invitation. totally dampen my mood when it's supposed to be a happy outing with vincee. i shall not elaborate more on why i had to go bac as i find it not appropriate to say things out here.

tmr i'll be back to work and tell adeline abt it rather den telling boss. the more closer the relationship, the more difficult for me to break the news. =(

festive season is nearing but i had to leave them. wtf luh... last day will be ard end of nov...

will miss elmo to bits! T.T

but i'll still look on the brighter side as there's more career prospects at masmas. i'll get my cert and advance..

tat's all for today bahh.

jana~

2009-10-27T23:25:00.004+08:00

LEFT MY WORKPLACE AT 6.30 TODAY!

reason is simple; no dogs lo!

only some randoms ones lyk cutting nails and ear cleaning.

today ah bang bought cigarette for me worrrrh. out of the blue -__-

i pay him den he dun wan accept. hais* weird weird de.

ask him why he say cus auntie no change.

anyways. as i've promised dardar. i'll cut down puff puff to half! ^^

after work today.. i met up with shersher; den we went jalan jalan abit and i told her pei me go cut fringe.

nice ma nice ma?! wanted sher comment so much. but she kept on ranting abt her work. stressful sia; poor darling.

i'm full of energy now! wondering how am i gg to slp early tonight worrhs

have to catch beauty slp liaos. if not there'll be MORE outbreaks on my faccee.

another 1 week had passed. and tmr wed. hahahahah! so so so fast.

wed nite meeting dardar go east coast park. =)) star gazing and heart to heart talk most probably.

thurs maybe gonna watch mj show. hmm. accompany dardar watch lo. hopefully i dun fall asleep. heh heh* and he'll have to accompany me watch my fav korean show too! so no argues ahhh...

actually thurs is my friend passng out parade and he keep telling me to go. lol* depends lo. see ah bao they all wanna go not. ytd nite chatted up with them; gonna plan for another outing! this time we'll jio more friends from ite. long tym nv see siyu, and wallace liaos. not forgetting wen zhen and ah bear. =) hopefully they can make it if it has been confirm.

have to plan carefully this coming off day. feels lyk got so many things to do but so little time lo. morning wake up need to pack bag go sun tan; as requested by dardar. he says im too fair liao. @.@ i feel im so dark already thou. but im gg there to swim.. main priority.

and lastly. time for my beauty slp liaos. zZzzZzzzZz(-.-)

tata!

2009-10-26T01:25:00.003+08:00

1st of all.
sorry for the lack of photos.
changed of phone and still didn get use to taking pics and hafta emphasize on the msging! ayeee.
im more difficult to adjust to new changes. and.. tat's a bad thing so i shant say anymore.
another thing. im kinda sick of blogging. guess tat wad every blogger face aftr a certain period of tym.
but no matter wad i'll still update raintears every so often. a gd habit too. some sort of writing diary and mayb when im 80 years old i can sit on the couch with my lap top thinking bac of this sucky life i've had! ...provided if im still alive.
uhm.
heard from sher tat clay is sick in us. aww. and he hafta work. away from home so far far away..... chatting with him now and somehow i can feel the coldness! hahahha. i know tat's absurd but kinda..
sians. he is nagging at me now! rawr. y i haven slp and blah blah blah. zzz*
sher is facing probs in her job. sooner or later she's just gg to left tat ducking boardroom! im sure other places will appreciate her ard and not talking behind her. real pissed off by her superior. old lady. opps. no. is old woman! shouldn't she spare some feelings for a newbie in this line? im sure she dun start off easily too.
so...
back to my own work;
wore specs to work today. somehow i cut better. able to spot those thiny weeny furs. but! i just look lyk a teacher.. if not for the packed timing i would hav take some photos of my masterpiece. boss lyk to give me rabbits to do. 1stly, is i dun injure them cus jaff always tend to cut their thin delicate skin. 2ndly, i just seem to trim them well.
so he'll just pass them to me and say zi you fa hui. =))
after work today;
mt up with dardar for a movie! halloween 2. nice show! but gruesome again. lol* but i just have to say this is muchhhh more better den the prev 2 shows. the way the kill ppl. woahh. im afraid i'll turn into a person lyk him too. he seems to be enjoying it thou. the new movie 2012 is showing featuring on the mayan calendar. knew it b4 but i dun really want to believe in it. but with so many facts supporting their existence really makes my hairs stand. well, i guess time tells. tat's my favourite quotation, too. so for nw, dun really bother to think and dampen my spirits.
and!! cant wait for my girlfriend is an agent to show!
just nw while waiting for the movie to start we went to arcade and play ball throwing. i dunno wads tat call. anyways tat's not the main topic i wanted to say. its this guy. he's just lyk a robot. hardly misses and im speechless. he mangaged to beat the high score of 701! zzz* just plain awesome luhh..
had the temptation to buy a leather bball and play.....
guess tat's all for tonight. so shag from sunday work.
looking forward to wed!!! east coast park! ^^

2009-10-25T01:16:00.002+08:00

4 days nv blog.
so far so gd;
Im happy with life.
tat's all =))
short and simple.

Dith ("V") Vince
sweet sweet love*

2009-10-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

i dun wan any changes in my life.
i dunno wad can i do now. i just want to say sorry..
if tat helps.

2009-10-18T01:38:00.005+08:00

I GOT MY PHONE! and yays.

im gonna compiled 3 days post tgt due to packed schedule.

friday;

i didn't slp, and morning went to help out with mummy at the stall. after which, got hm and slpt for abt an hour plus. den i got out and bought my phone. the sales person was really promt. took less den 15 mins.. when i hold on to crystal, hmm. it feels funny. as the top slider felt heavier. 8.0 mega pixel camera wasn't much great. i can only say it's about the same as my previous viewty. but the music is wooo~ power. ^^ tat's good enough. but when i began texting, my nightmare came. the ULTRA sensitive touch screen was too responsive and i ended up with 1 chunk of arabic words. but now, i've got used to it. =) not yet fully explored the functions and applications such as games; a total of 9 like golf and fishing etc.

and tat's all abt crystal for now.

evening;

went out for a movie =))

while waiting for the movie to start;

chilled out at Giraffe. LOL i didn't heard of such a bar b4.. the name itself is interesting.. but the PPL there EVEN more interesting. v 'PROMPT' service i would say..

had long island tea and they serve with the lemon slice into the drink. -__- duh~ ice lemon tea isit.. and it taste v bitter. den..! the music.. is on and off. with mic testing every so often. for wad sehh. totally spoil mood. however, the vocalist sings well. lots of feeeelings. lol*

after tat we head back to PS for our movie; inglorious basterds. tat movie ahh, cant say its good or bad bcus at 1st i didn't know wads the movie abt and was wondering why the hell are they speaking so strangely.. towards the middle, realised tat it was the world war II bt nazis and jews. shan't elaborate abt this as im ducking tired rite nw..

but hmm hmm. it was a memorable day ouhh~ ^^

saturday;

went to work and anticipating knock off.

however as the hours passes, i felt my body getting weaker. no energy to tame the dog and slight struggles left me quivering. felt like closing my eyes. w/o food and limited liquids plus a hectic saturday.. sighs.

but the motivation stays there cus was meeting someone for dinner =)

finally knocked off at 8 and received a call from my fren tat they gg out for a movie sort of celebrating psp bday.and i was like.. ughh!

P.S: thanks for ure understanding.

headed down to bugis with an empty stomach. bought mac into the cinema and cant wait to devour it all at once. ~.~ i sat at the corner but they all force me to sit in the middle, waiting to catch up with me but i said noo~ im ducking hungry! i wan to eat and watch the show. and they lol. -__-

and fyi, the show was pandorium. okays luh, not bad. the reason y i say not bad was it kept me awake.. maybe due to my fatigue, didn't quite enjoy it. was feeling so numb to the exciting scenes when they all said it was freaking scary. emm, so sorry for tat.

and... lastly,

IM SLPING.

2009-10-16T02:52:00.004+08:00

wen nuan pai knitted scarf from sher to clay. awwwwww*
sweet sweet lurve. =D

im doing mine halfway; at 1st it was for tat someone. now it's no longer for him.
u were once my everything.
did too much for u and nv thot of wanting anything from u but u didn't appreciate.

be ur life filled with remorse, whatsoever. take care.
tat's all i can say and i dun ever want to receive any of ur msges anymore.

and please, gawd bless i wont see u anymore. in this small small singapore and an even smaller yishun town ure staying in. but, even if im tat suay on tat unfateful day, i'll show u im living better now. definitely. =)

anyways.
im moving on; im glad.
deep in my heart, im thankful. only u; tat SOMEONE special =D loves*

P.S: I MISS U truck loads. <3

2009-10-16T01:47:00.004+08:00

got home from work today and i saw fei mao sitting outside my doorstep! hahah. dinner time huh. =))
hope she do this every day so i dun have to play hide and seek. hahha.

eating maggi mee now. was so busy downloading games for gorgor. makes me hungry and tired. zzz. all the games he play are so old school lorhhhs. *swt

he's gg us this coming sunday and he borrowed my ds. T.T thou kinda sad to part with my ni ni to (LOL; tat's wad someone cals it)

but i guess he need it more den me. he's away from hometown and from sher. =( but a little bit of me feel happy cus i have sher to myself for tat whole month liaos!

and yays!
tmr im gg to buy myself a new phone. LG Crystal. actually i didn't thot of buying so soon. initially thot of changing it on january but viewty cmi liaos. *kiss goodbye to my sweetie phone* den brought forward to end of this month. for my pay.. but i saw there's a on-going promo for 1 week so just get it lorh. sooner or later only. so gd to be financial stable... unlike last time. have to wait donkey years just to get a little thing i want.

2009-10-13T23:21:00.004+08:00

ure starting to become a part of my life.. i appreciate u as ur simply different from others. but...
the moment has arrived;
my past. i assume u have the right to know.
whether to proceed or to leave..
im feeling terrible now.. as i couldn't find my tears.
is there something tat could erase my past memories?

2009-10-12T16:54:00.002+08:00

"Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt."
saw these on my friend facebook post. its really inspiring and somehow i got lifted from the pain inflicted to me. in order to appreciate love again, i have to accept my own past and let it slowly disintegrate into dust particles instead of carrying the burden letting it stay hidden.. i know it's impossible doing this myself. but with true love, im sure we can overcome everything.
im sure my future life will be filled with happiness. starting up my own family and taking care of my ageing parents.. watching my kids grow up. we will fall in love with each other over and over again.. lasting forever till my last breath...

2009-10-12T01:03:00.005+08:00

today damn busy,
boss took in many dogs, almost all is puppy cut and schnauzer clip. zzzzz* i kena a skin problem dog again. gawd damn. plus the dog v 'guai' and NOT AT ALL wasting my time X)
the last customer was a rabbit. trim neat. lol. easy job. ah jaff told me by this week he already earn $1200 liao. ai seh! purposely make me jealous. tat's almost my 1 month salary. must tell him to blanjah me go jb makan liao. hahahhah!
this momth i almost broke liao. nv plan properly beforehand. sian liao. paid off all my bills, medical fees and tat marvelous music school fees im left with so little to spend. now it's not even mid month. zzz.
anyways, i've fired off my music school so i have extra cash next month. will be changing my phone liao. LG crystal price had been changing. from $398 to $428 den back to $398. and currently $368. diaoooos. keep fluctuating.. dun ask me y, idk also.
but i can say it's special cus it's the 1st transparent phone and the specs are as great. 8 megapixel camera with u cube technology like iphone. wondering y so many ppl are gg for iphone. its so big in size how to hold and text.. its slim thou but there isn't any flash for the camera and without protection. definitely not for me, i drop my phone so frequently like nobody's business..
sighs. faster month end leiiis. =(
ouh ya, just now omw home from snooker zone den pass by tat zhu cao. wth sia. without my parents ard they keep making tat zhuk zhuk sound. really hate those mousies. no guts, only know how to disturb.
btw, jason msged me ytd morning at 6 plus asking me if im asleep. fei hua* so early in the morning dun slp do morning exercise ah.. told him nicely already we can only be friends.. cus he is v xian shi. no sincerity at all. if he really like me, he can do more den just sending me msges asking if im still single.. wads more he dun rmr my birthday. this type of guy i seen alot liao. they just wan something from u..
sian. anyways, i replied him, dun think too much and take care. lol!

2009-10-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

real stressful today during work,

all the dogs i get are filled up with tangles and skin diseases. holes here and there. still wan puppy cut. -___- the more i cut, im like covering the bald patches instead of making it look nice.

den boss can see im fussed up and he say slowly, dun stress. mayb he scare i will flared up and quit.. lol* he really funny luh, keep teasing me. such as told the dog u better dun tekan her, if not tmr she mc i die ahh.. sometimes i angry with him too. ba zhan my grooming table and i had to use tat low low table in front. making my back break and customer like those ah pek keep looking at me. and the dog will keep moving to KPO. den i purposely stetch my back often to hint him. hahahha~ he got it and he return me my table. smack him lo. bully me.

after 6pm den it's all quiet and i was slacking outside eating cup noodles den drinking the soup. and he come kajiao again.. said.. slurp slurp.. ahh so nice to drink. no wonder jaff keep saying he is one ke ai de lao ban. i would say he's ke wu. nv see him disturb others only me~ T.T

and when im about to leave the shop den a dog come! arghhhh. basic grooming. zzz. after bathing him boss come and say aiya u go hm luh i take over. OUH! so kind but i say dun wan, i dun like to do things halfway. lol* he laugh and say you xing ge. anna hear den say u help her also dun help me! u see ppl dun appreciate.. lol*

real funny working here but sometimes can get really mang zhang. like things obstructing me will affect my mood. my pattern is different from jaff and boss. for them if they angry they will kpkb but i'll kick wadever in front of me. and today i kick the dustbin den the whole bin topple and i have to sweep the FUR up again. orbi gd lo me.

anyways enough of my work i can keep going on and on. hahahs. I LOVE MY JOB! ^^

today after work i thot gg dinner with SOMEONE but in the end nv. knock off quite late also. den mum called me so ate dinner with them.. same old food. sian liaos.

but got a few guys working as cooks at the zhu cao there whom always looking at me.. got one quite shuai. actually i nv go notice much at first but i keep getting the feeling got ppl looking. i told mummy today den when she turn to look, he looked away. hahaha. bunch of malaysian ppl.

hmm, tmr is finally sunday! normally is weekends busy but recently week days also quite packed. business getting well but none of my business also. cus im earning by basic. sian norhs.

opps. say dun talk abt work liao. hurhur.

long time since i blogged so whiny.

so.. jana~

2009-10-08T01:06:00.003+08:00

feeling real fatigue now. blog cus tmr is my off day.
the moment i wake up this morning i feel my whole body shaking. somewhat no energy.
wanted to call in for mc but i told myself it's just one day more to go. so i persevered.
partly is becus he gave me the motivation.
those words he told me tat nite at skygarden.. i'll always rmbr. thank you so much =)
today there wasn't much dogs to do. mostly is come for bathing and basics.
in fact i can go off early but i stay in. and helped out with cleaning and did my colleague 2 dogs and 1 guinea pig.
so am i considered a workaholic? lol*
reach early daily and leave late..
anyways.
after work, i went to buy to buy another barbell. another $10 gone. cus i ate it again in the morning breakfast with mummy. sighs. this time i screw it real tight. prrrraaaaayy hard it wont come loose again liaooooos. T.T
den i search the whole northpoint for takoyaki. my favourite snack and had a sudden crave for it. found it and i can remain happy till now. becus intially i thot only sembawang and dhoby gaut have their outlets. ham and loads of nacho cheese. yummy! love wowtako to bits!
hmm. am i going bonker due to overworking? heh*
btw~ i wonder who's tat bum who took fei mao collar???!! cant be her taking it out herself or drop as i buckled on tight. =((( real sad as it's only the 1st day since she wore it!! sobs*
bedtime~ zzz
P.S: if ure the one for me, i'll cherish and never will i let go anymore..

2009-10-07T02:18:00.004+08:00

rain; cleanse my soul.. let me think clear.
dun give me too much hopes; since we are still friends.
if we crossed the borders..
i'll feared tat u'll go away, after i've put in my heart and soulx...
no reasons to explain why ure name appears on the newcoming msg i'll smile.. sighs* leave all to fate.

at work;
minutes when i was abt to knock off.. a cross breed came in and wanted to trim neat. i was like zzZZZZZzzzzz. no choice but to do. since it's still my probation period. so no argues. T.T
after work;
went to buy groceries for fei mao. tat cat who's always in my neighbourhood. since i've moved hse to here.. she's always sticking close to me as i keep feeding her food. the moment she sees me after my school or outings she'll tag along following behind me to the lift to level 9. but daddy always dun let her stay in so sadly. she stays outside my doorstep.
anyways, i've finally labelled her as my kitty today.. with her collar with a blue bell. hopefully one day daddy gonna let her stay in with me.

after tmr.. it's gonna be my off day. one more to go. my arms are aching like shyt. hands numb every single morning i wake up.. arghhs. tubes of hand creams ain't helping me deal with my animals-inlicted scars and 60 yrs old-looking hands. price to pay with my dream job.. another sighs..
good night to all and to fei mao outside. slp tite.

2009-10-02T00:25:00.004+08:00

today went to polyclinic to check on my wound.. and thankfully doc say it has fully recover. just some soft tissues left which will leave a permanent scar. hais.. polyclinic is better den private ones. cheaper is the main priority! lol*
and i soon bian went to have my blood grouping test taken. so now have to wait for the results... zzz* thot it was immediate sia. an old lady in front of me also taking blood test but the doc only prick her finger but he draw one tube of blood from my lower arm! F*** also dunno y sia. den i ask my sher, she say maybe for research... and she laugh out laugh. -_____- better dun use it to do weird weird testing lo..

den omw back, i saw a few kittens at lor 7 blk downstairs.. so bought 2 packs of whiskas to feed them. and alot came along. lol* so cute. ^^

strolled my way home and received a text msg from wendy; violin lesson cancelled due to teacher's day. !!! eh? i supposed was children's day rite... zzz even if it's children's day wad is it got to do with me? im not a children, and my teacher is not one either! -___-
gonna quit this ducking school next month. as i've paid a deposit amount there. reason is simple. since the day i've learned. 2 and half months; i missed 4 lessons due to their so called holidays. PH i can understand but they have this music school holidays which always fall on thursday..
and $100 gone. next lesson im just gonna tell them if i dun get compensated i wont continue. yucks*
i'll stop talking and thinking abt this as it'll just make my blood boil.

8:45 pm;
went for a jog with ecniv from tpy to bishan.. damn* his stamina and speed i cant catch up. 2 reasons i guess.
firstly is too long nv run and exercise! ( swimming not counted as it's my forte)
secondly is my friends who run with me last time; their stamina is on equal level with me.
hmm. kinda wasted his time cus i was tired and kept walking.. hurhur.

anyways;
i've kinda lost quite a few friends.
why can't guys and girl keep a pure friendship?

must girls and guys make friends just becus they wanted to start a relationship with each other?

sighs~

2009-09-30T00:38:00.003+08:00

new barbell~ ^^
today when i thot i was late for work;
reach workplace 15 mins late but no one was there! shocked me for a second. supposed xiuxiu will be there liao and boss went for fishing..
but! mins later i received a phone call and boss asked if i've reached. lol* cus there's an appointment at 10.30. but the dog not yet arrived. soon boss arrived and look kinda sad. =( cus his hobby is to go fishing. but xiuxiu had some urgent things to settle las min so its inevitable bah.
i brought home my nail clipper today and helped my neighbour to trim her dog's nails.. woo~ tat golden i've always saw now it's in my hands. wahahah. can finally bao bao her liao. she offered me $30 just for trimming her nauil den i was damn shocked. and i told her even my shop dun charge so much but she insisted. and i only accepted $10. hahah..
hopefully next time i'll get to trim her other two dogs nails as well. mummy was impressed looking at me doing my work.. cus she had no idea how it goes. =) and i was happy.
tmr the last day of september liaos. my favourite month. the month of past sorrows and present happiness...
and finally two more days to pay day! woots.

2009-09-29T01:02:00.004+08:00

moments ago i was having a happy time! frens texting me wishing me happy birthday! ^^ unlike last year and so on.. whr my handphone is redundant. LOL*

went to work today as usual and was wished by my colleague xiuxiu happy birthday~ so shocked yet happy. den happiness came in a row..

i received a polo tee from levi's from xiuxiu and a birthday cake. =D and a big ang bao from boss! 88!

its month end and im broke and this really come in need. hahahah. i used this money and treated my family to a scrumptious dinner! had gongbao froglegs prawn sauce chicken and etc... many dishes and thou dad keep saying he dun like this and tat i can sense tat he is happy. thou of the bad things he had done. but now, he is old liao... just want him to be happy..

anyways, i make a simple wish today~

i wan to be happy everyday! hahah!

it'll still come true, cus i didn't say out i type out.

yeah~ hopefully my wish will come true!

2009-09-25T23:57:00.002+08:00

all was fine today;
until at night having dinner with mum and dad. -___-
i SWALLOWED my brbell ball bearing~ ohlala. senior did warn me b4 to tighten it daily but yea. i was lazy. ate rice and ate the metal as well. wondering y didn't i feel anything strange when chewing... duh. and i dun have excess barbells with me so texted senior. SOS. he'll be bringing two for me, thankfully.
today sis didn't come back home as usual.. quiet quiet now. without her as a chatterbox. mum's asleep and here im alone. hated the feeling of being lonely. listening to sad song tracks now to match my mood.
he texted me today again; telling me to please take gd care of urself..i'm v sorry to hurt u so much in the past. and dun reply.. now its past 12 and it's his bday.. cant control myself and i text him happy birthday. i'll forgive and forget. take care... was thinking not to send him this greeting.. as i know she will be beside him. but anyways, she wont get upset by this. knew her well enough. now, he has found his true love. better be.. dun wan my sacrifice to be wasted. thoughts going thru my mind; who'll be my mr right den? waiting for our paths to cross. feeling is the most important to me in a relationship.. the rest doesn't matter.
i'm gonna take my time to seek... if i found him, this time it'll last a lifetime.

2009-09-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

it had been a few days since i last blogged.

blogging now since i can stayed up late. tmr finally my off day!

worked 9 days straight and weekends with senior on mc. damn 'shiok' plus it a public hoilday so truck loads of doggies.. hands numb every morning i wake up and whole body aches..

hope after a good rest i'll feel better!

tmr im going to make a trip down to chinatown to run an errand for my boss and senior. the new scissors he ordered is here and therefore, i have to go and collect on their behalf. -___-

now i have $450 in my wallet. fat fat wallet. lols* but it'll be gone tmr. gd bye money~

counting down to my payday!! 8 days more to it! actually is 7 days but i off on 1 oct~ children's day. where i an entitled to double pay... SOBBBBBBBBB!

wondering will boss change my basic pay to commissioned one? and how many percentage will he give me.. hopefully 45%. for this month i've calculated; i can earn a gross of $1.7k currently. hehs sounds attractive for a beginner like me... i'll continue to work hard and improve on my speed so i can hit my next target of $2k... senior is aiming for $4 k every month. zzz. he's always grunting about no money use.. high expenses he have.. lol.

my favourite quotation.. one will never find real happiness if he is never contented.

clay bday is coming soon; on 27th sept. sher spend the whole night making a birthday card for him. bought the materials at popular with her after work just now.. they had planned alot of activities on tat day.. eating out with his whole family and so on. so envious* wondering will anyone celebrate my bday for me this way too?

last year my bday was one of the saddest..

his bday was 2 days earlier den mine. 26th sept. i went to his hse bringing along handmade food and a present and he told me he had to rush to work unable to take off.. yea, true he is working but also spending his bday with her.. den 27th was our anniversary he is also unable to take off. den on 28th, my bday he is ALSO unable to take off.. and after tat i didn't see him for a week or more.. i still rmr.. he didn't wish me happy bday too.

but well enough i still have mummy.. she bought me a cake. but tat moment all i've wanted is him to notice me.. hais*

okays.. enough of these sad stuffs! feeling great now as i've voice them out. =D going to sleep now if not, my eye bags can hold 2 fuji apples liaos. so, sayonara~

2009-09-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

today i did a sporting, the dog's fur is full and easy to cut yet i didn't do my best. sighs.. my grooming standard is dropping.. saw tat boss is disappointed with me. as he expected tat i could do better. perhaps becus of 3 reasons..

firstly, senior set a time limit for me and i was too bothered by it so i rushed through.

secondly, i didn't do a sporting for quite some time.

thirdly, is plainly becus i didn't put in any effort....

these few days, after the ritual.. i feel really tired den before. both physically and mentally. definitely not becus of work. its my mindset tat had gone wrong.

everything can be perfect with a positive attitude. but somehow i lose the strength to move on..

wanna sleep now; if not i'll think too much for certain.

fatty, wondering how r u now? she ain't blogging and i dunno how have u been these 3 weeks.. depressed.

愛一個人很簡單，他的快樂開心就是我的快樂與開心

2009-09-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

slacked the whole day at work. sian*

did only one labrador retriever today.. and senior did 2 dogs. have to give him do cus he's earning by commission.. by 3 pm both of us are really counting down.. played on his psp.. monster hunter. and reminscing about the times when im playing this game with him, my ex.....

now tat i've changed my url i could finally unleash my feelings without her knowing..

hunting for rathalos plate and rathian ruby. our hunting tactics tgt; i'll throw the paint ball and he'll den throw the flash bomb. and off he'll use his hammer aiming for its head while me on my great sword, aiming for the tail. we'll bring life powder and saving each other in the nick of time.. i will always bring loads of flute along boosting his attack, health and armor.. supporting him when my potions are down. he'll always save all his mega potions for me as im the chiongster while he's the strategist. lol* those happy memories is all i'll get reminded of when i thot of him... even thou he had did alot of wrong things to me, i cant bring myself to hate him. i've turned a big round and i realised i still love him..

now, he's on his way to starting a family with her.. i know.. its unrequitted.

im not hoping for a reconcile. as he already chose her over me and xuan..

just tat my heart damn hurts.

anyways, enough of these...

after work today i went to buy a new charger and a crystal case for my nds lite and for my viewty.. not intending to change my handphone anymore... i'll be keeping as much things about him with me.. the pink psp he bought for me i've sold it to my fren as i was feeling real depressed and i dun think i can buy it back from her.. i wonder does he still use the blue psp i bought for him? =(

i still kept the little diamond ring he bought for me, his baby photo, the keychains he gave me and our neoprint. intially i cut them up and threw but only to found out i have left out one.. hais* think i'll sleep now... dun think too much bah.

2009-09-15T13:57:00.003+08:00

just finished with the ritual;
violin lesson will be changed to today as wendy not free on thurs. such coincidence i must say..
but i'll still go off early on thurs cus mummy wont be working for 5 days straight till sat as the shop owner's father passed away.. at the age of 90 yrs old. woo..
ate vegetarian noodles this morning and its still hard to chew. but slowly getting used to it. talking is fine except for those R and L pronouciation.. -___-
mainly is becus of the swelling minority is the barbell. now im so bored with nth to do. finish practising violin to prep myself for lesson and now going out to market with mummy again. itching to eat food now... zzz. when im not working, my appetite roars..
may blog tonight.

2009-09-13T22:03:00.003+08:00

weets! finally i got it done. my tongue piercing;
when senior shove the thick hollow needle in, all i felt was 2 tough push. so its not consider painful. the forceps tat clamped on to my tongue hurts more... and btw, ear piercing hurts! really strange.. lols*
now i hope my tongue will recover soon and i can fiddle with the barbell. hahahs.
senior is v concern about me and he say i must rinse my mouth after every meal to prevent infection and must tighten the ball bearing twice daily. zZz(-.-)
now waiting for my tongue to swell.. wondering how much discomfort will i get... usually last 4-5 days to 2 weeks in some ppl. btw i didn't eat anything today too. going to be buddlha soon. slowly cultivate. 1stly is becus work was too busy, secondly is becus after i pierce i dun feel like eating. scare will aggravate the area.
think i wont let my mum and sher know if not, sure kpkb. so, tats all for today. nth much to blog about my work... as every day was the same old thingy..

2009-09-12T22:58:00.003+08:00

today at work;
business was good and i lost count of how many dogs i did. zZz*
slogged till 8.30 den manage to finish my last dog of the day..
luckily northpoint does sell barbells and i dun have to travel to the nearest 77th street etc. power does have a large variety to choose from! i didn't take a long time to find my favourite as i've been eyeing this colour. =D they have got jeweled ones fanciful ones like beach ball which somehow look like lollipop. lol* heard tat rubber and acrylics ones are better as it wont damage ur teeth but steel balls are prettier. anyways, i'll change design sooner or later so no frets.
cant wait till tmr after work! so senior will pierce it for me. just now spend an hour talking about our work place and political issues. sians* such a small shop also have... den we chatted about the previous girl; serene, who's working there but quitted cus of the lady boss and gossips.. heard from senior, boss did not increase her pay at all but he increase mine by $200. maybe he afraid i'll leave this shop. i'll quit my job here as long as im free from the gossips and senior remains there. working without senior real bored. cus i talk to no one else as the rest are all so fake. and somehow i feel tat they are scheming. thankfully, at least i got someone whom i can trust if not im real dead.. x[
today my first day of vegetarian diet and im thinking of old chang kee. lol* feel like eating some prawn cutlets and squid head. o.o so sinful. the person says i'll feel weak these few days and told me to either wear a yelloe thread or a gold anklet. gold anklet my mum has but its so 'song' so i tied a yellow thread around my waist instead. hmm..
just finish disinfect my barbell and its time to catch some slp! hopefully there wont be too much doggies...
real tired.

2009-09-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

went peninsular plaza today and intented to do a tongue piercing cus after much consideration i find it safer to get it from a licensced holder den asking my senior. =x

however, the shop reccommended by forum was nowhere to be found. =.= so kinda disappointed. but at least i bought something there. while shopping i saw this shop selling zippos in many special designs and at reasonable price. =) so i got myself one.

had a nice outing today;

met up with justina and py at city hall mrt to catch a new movie. blood ties. and of a sudden we thot of wallace who's working part time at azabo sabo at marina square. he looked so suprise to see us! and yea, of cus as we had not seen each other since the graduation ceremony. he's the only one who went off to further his studies in NYP while the rest of us were either busy working or in army. he was going to knock off and we asked him along too. =)

had my favourite ocha ice cream and his colleague was really sweet and friendly and gave me a giant scoop. ^^

btw, the movie, blood ties was not really a horror movie. more of gruesome and violence. overall, i'll only give it 3 stars upon 5 as i wasn't expecting this. but, the story line is quite touching towards the end. =)

after watching the movie, we went to eat at makan sutra. chatted alot and justina mention about tian chan. she called him but he never pick up her calls but later msged back by saying, u call me? btw im damn pissed off cus he is VERY RUDE to me last nite. was kind enough to ask him why hasn't he slp at 4 am and etc, and he gave me attitude. F***

even if he's angry with us he dun have to vent his anger on me rite. as justina says he had been trying to contact her but she never reply or answer his calls. ridiculous. y aim me sio. from tat moment onwards, i swear i won't be bothered about him anymore.

planning for another overseas trip;

this time with wallace along =) tat time we tried to ask him but he's busy with school and work. den we thot of phang hua too, if they all are able to go den its gonna be fun! py will ask jason definitely. =.= feel bad to leave him out also. he's a gd friend of us but i hoped he'll give up on me.

most probably if everyone is on, the trip will be scheduled on october. and week ends. T___T

dunno boss will unhappy or not. but october i'll be earning by commission. hopefully it shouldn't affect much if i inform him earlier.

2009-09-10T01:00:00.005+08:00

just another boring day at work;

guess i dun always have to elaborate on my 'customers' but have to mention something i did wrong today. =((

i accidentally inflicted a small cut on doggy' ear today. thou its not a big one but i was feeling damn f***ing guilty. i admit this is v careless of me. =C

call on the owner to tell them about it, they came down to see.. i was waiting to see unhappy faces but to my suprise.. they said.. aiyoo, never mind luh.. who call him to be naughty. =.=

in fact he wasn't figeting at all. its my fault. boss was not unhappy and senior didn't say anything too. guess they did same kind of mistakes too or even serious ones like how senior cut on doggy' eyelid. but tat doesn't give me an excuse to forgive myself. sighs*

okays, i'll drop this unhappy incident and talk about something else.

today, i asked senior about her tongue piercing. how is it done and wad are the effects. she was a tattooist and learnt about body piercings.. ( i still find it strange to label her as a she ) =/ cus i always wanted one but its gawd damn expensive. asked around in the market and the price is nett. $80/- @@

i told her i wanted one too den she say she'll help me once i made up my mind. but i forget to ask her how much will she charge me. =.=

its the cost im most concerned with not the pain. i always thot tongue piercing is the one with the most pain as no alcohol could be used.. but she corrected me saying tongue piercing dun hurt as much, just tat the whole tongue will swell and make u feel uncomfortable.

hahah, now i know y my frens say their fren who got tongue barbel talks like a fish. but its just temporary so i dun worry.. i'll just keep quiet for tat week.

also read up alot on the internet; for safety reasons. learnt tat the tongues have better recovery den the ears. 4 weeks compared to ears which is about 6 weeks.

anyway, this decison will be final if its below $50. cant spend too much money as im on a budget to buy a new phone next month.

tmr i'll be making a trip down to amk hub. to do some stuffs. *confidential*

i'll be deleting some previous post on my blog as recently, too much ppl have known about my blog. i'll just let my close frens know about my secrets. moreover, the dark days were already over, in order to stay and live happier i even have to forget it myself....

hmm hmm. guess i have been blabbering alot today. the reason is bcus its my off day ^^

there wont be any violin lesson as the school will be closed but the fees are still counted! gawd damn school. $25 gone down the drain. the most dreadful month will be dec, the school will be closed for two consecutive weeks. resulting in missing two more precious lesson. zzz suay sia me. according to the calendar, i'll be short change of 5 lessons.. and its $125... ouchie *heart pain a little*

after i've learn the advanced bowing techniques like the spiccato i'll move on to flute most probably. *grinns*

time to hug my baobao and indulge in my sweet sweet dreams where ur there for me. =) dreamt tat u have came back to my side and sweared to never leave me again.

2009-09-09T01:52:00.006+08:00

my singtel contract will reach 21 months on 1st october! children's day and im eyeing on this phone from LG. yea, LG crystal. =) going to trade in my pink viewty for it. kind of upset having to part with this phone but at least i wont have to pay so much. i'll treasure my times with it for these remaining days.. =(
bought a new pair of shoes today with my sis after work. i got the shop member and as this is my birthday month i got additional discount. ^^ sis bought a pair too. while i see her admiring her shoes im so utterly disappointed as i dun hav mine with me. cus the shop hav no more stock in my size and have to collect it at a later date. =[ will post the picture as its a really cute pair with teddy bear prints covered with sequins. lol* hope i'll get it by thursday!!
today such a special date, 090909. and its such a waste not to post and rmr wad i did even thou im really dead beat. did 2 rabbits and a sporting today. the shih tzu didn't have a left ear o.O cus it was bitten off by his mum when he was a puppy. kind of pity as he's really cute.
ytd a poodle came for boarding kennel but there's limited space in our shop so boss thot of letting him stay at my hse. actually had a urge of bringing him back home with me but dad gonna object to it for certain. hais* i wonder y the owner name him cherry when its a boy. =.= the couple cant keep it as he bite his owners' parents.. now they going to buy a new flat so he'll be staying with us for a few months till they got their own flat. so sad as i can see his owners really missed him.. she almost cried. sighs..
justina they all just came back from bangkok.. saw their photos she uploaded. seems so fun!! but i didn't join them due to my work. anyways, he's not there too. and the person i wan to avoid is there. lol* received lots of msges from him but i didn't replied. really hope he wont wait for me cus i really have no feeling for him luh.. sian. the one i like dun msg me but the one i dun like keeps on msging me every single day. =.= loads of real mushy stuffs makes my hair stand. why is he so persistent? hope he'll wake up as i nv ever gave him any hopes right from the start... i kind of miss him these few days and have lots of flash back on our outings tgt.. he has now poc and hope we'll have chance to meet out soon. i'll leave it to fate bah. not bcus i dun like to take control of my life but i believe fate teally does play a major part. especially after hearing a story of two lovers from my mum just moments ago.
they are 50 plus years old now and tgt happily. when they were in their twenties, the guy didn't marry the girl due to close minded parents. while one is a teochew and the other is a cantonese. *real stupid rite* den the guy is fillial and he listened to his parents and didn't contact wth the girl anymore.. and the girl moved to stay in a country place. after 10 years they met up with each other! both are still single. its strange as one live in the city while the other stay in the country when they dun interact at all.
tat's fate.. definitely. which brings ppl tgt no matter how far the distance.
today i guess there's lots of happy couple getting married.. real happy for them and hope their love last chang chang jiu jiu just like 090909. wonder when will it be my turn? when i can be with the guy whom i love and he'll treasure me too..
=(

2009-09-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

only did 3 dogs today.. 1 basic grooming for siberian husky and two shih tzu botak. some cutting of nails and cleaning ears. generally a slow day for me..

spend most of my time sitting in front of the stall chatting with delivery man and some regular customers. hahahah. thou there's some age gap. =p in fact, im the youngest there except boss' daughter, ke yi which is 6 years old this year. lol* tmr is senior off day. hoping there'll be enough dogs to keep me occupied. tat's all for today. gotta slp early;

2009-09-06T22:09:00.004+08:00

nearly fall sick;

saturday was a long and tedious day for me.. my right ear hurts and my back tooth ache.

a sign of heatiness.. i told myself. these few days i cant fall sick so i drank plenty of water and tuck in bed earlier den usual. today im feeling better. hah* prevention is always better den cure. but my tooth still aches =( makes me no mood to eat anything.. ordered food but cant chew at all. sighs. guess tat's when porridge is a better alternative for me.

my senior is getting overboard;

at first i helped him do some of his job but now he makes me do everything.. or should i say is she. she likes girls and dress up like a guy. not suprisingly for me as i found out myself and confrmed with xiuxiu. lols. from now on i shall post as she instead. recalling the 1st time i met her, i felt a little strange. y does her hips seems bigger den her shoulders and her voice isn't coarse. hmm, she does have a low voice thou. after which i didn't go observe further till she told me things about her ex. after much chatting den i say. ur 30 y dun u settle down and have kids to build ur own family. and her reply was really strange. she say im not a gay, u cant tell me to find a guy to marry bah.

tat moment my reaction was - o.O did i even mention anything abt gay or lesbian? since den i began suspecting. from top to toe she really look like a guy butfrom my sixth sense it told me the truth. i tried to asked xiuxiu but she says err and ahh.. y do u say so? lols* so its confirmed. she didn't really answer my qns but i knew it. anyways, its non of my problem as long as she dun pursue me can liaos.

back to the main topic;

last week i helped her did a basic grooming and she wrote her name. its fine with me. cus i volunteered to help. but from this week onwards, i was busy on my own so i didn't offered to help but she told to help her bathe her dogs while she carried on with a new dog. main reason is bcus she earns by commission while i dun. this one, i can still tahan. until since ytd, i did 5 dogs but she wrote one of them as her name. and today, i did 6 dogs and she took two. @@ and those little ones tat come for bathing or cut nails, she wrote all as hers. no wonder she's so kind to help me fill up the doggies appointment cards. when boss comes back, he'll be wondering y i only did so little dogs when the schedule is so full. but if he have common sense he'll know senior pattern.

for now, i'll keep this from boss.. even if he ask me. until next month when i start earning by commission.. sighs.

p.s: the dogs i did these few days were all sweeties while senior got those naughty ones. dogs can sense ppl's feeling.. tat's wad michelle used to told me. love them and groom them at their comfort and they'll love u back.

2009-09-04T22:42:00.002+08:00

hateful senior;
went back to work today and senior is not here. o.O he called me and says he's on mc ytd and today.. duh. i know he's not sick just plain lazy.. thanks to him i have to work OT today!! T.T
energy depleted as i slogged from morning till 9 pm..
today there is this new customer tat brought in a white schnauzer puppy!!! so so cute~ although white is a fault colour in the schnauzer family but i still like them best! compare to the salt and pepper range. solid black are as awesome too. =)
wanted to take a photo of her but was so busy... i wan a schnauzer too!! hate daddy.. dun let me keep dogs at home. if not, i can have them to play with me or hugging them to sleep. =3
somewhat i hate dogs tat are owned by indians. im not trying to be racist but all of them have this stuck up attitude and so does their dogs. was badly scratched by this silky terrier while im cutting his nails. it doesn't hurts now but the scratch marks are so obvious and gross. counting them and its a total of 15 red and long ones. sighs*
tmr they'll be plenty of dogs as i saw their appointment cards.. zzzz.. boss going offshore to fish and there'll be only me and senior tending the grooming salon. another tiring day awaiting..

2009-09-04T01:03:00.009+08:00

wednesday;

i was plain lazy so i didn't post. hahah..

i did only a sporting during my work but senior did two big dogs, alaskan malamute and giant poodle. actually i was supposed to do the malamute but a maltese came 1st so i did him. senior suay lo, the malamute damn attitude problem de. so the maltese saved me! lol*

1st time i ever seen a malamute. really looked like a giant sized siberian husky. o.O

went home straight after work and slept early.

thursday;

woke up early in the morning only to discovered tat sher didn't go for work. she told me she had a bad gastric pain in the morning. i accompanied her to the family clinic nearby later and went to fetch mummy from work to eat our breakfast tgt; teochew porridge. i used to dread eating porridge when im still young. cus its tasteless. hahah.. but now, it seems to taste better. dunno y. i wonder y older ppl likes to eat porridge, is it bcus it taste yummy or bcus they are poor? hmm hmm.

after breakfast;

went back home and bathed den went out to bugis tgt with sher. shopping time! hahahs* actually wanted to go chinatown to buy some grooming tools but senior helped me to call the shop and told me the stocks are not in yet. =(

i have been using this Carlo Rino bag for a 5 months and today sher bought a matching wallet for me. lols* as my birthday present this year. ^^

i was thinking of getting a new burberry wallet for myself using my next month salary. but now with this sweet heart from sher, dun think i need one till it worn out. =)

the 1st perfume i choose from den and till now its been my all time favourite;

Burberry Brit

bought a new 100ml bottle today~

sher had been using perfumes from the body shop and Christian Dior but now she admits this still smells the best. main reason why is bcus clay also like this scent. we shared almost everything from clothes to skin care and accessories (except bf) hahah. luckily i had a sister instead of a brother. =)

today she quarrelled with clay again cus she dun wan to go his hse as she wanted to accompany me and mummy. sometimes i really think clay is overly possessive liaos.. fortunately he had sher as his gf.. if not for other girls, think they cant stand his nonsense long ago. this coming 27th will be their 4 years anniversary! hopefully he will be more understanding and dun let sher get too upset. =( she stayed at his hse from friday till mon still not enough mah. in the future they get married scare he see her till sian liao ahh! hahah..

sher had been v stressed up recently due to her job as a corporate secretory.

her superior is really stucked up. plus the fast paced environment and political issues... hais*

she 's considering changing her job if things dun go well.

sher , if u happened to read this,

i'll be always there for you! jing love you truck loads!! hees.

time to hug my baobao and go lala land liao. zZz(-.-)

2009-09-02T00:52:00.008+08:00

today im happy at work compared to ytd.
1stly, i got my salary in the early morning! hahaha. so i bought a bag for my mummy birthday immediately after work and she like it alot. =)
2ndly, i was told by boss tat there will a $200 increment to my pay end of this month! wakakaka~
3rdly, instead of 3 months probation to commissioned pay. it'll be changed to 2 months. ^^ so after sept i'll start to earn alot more. sweet.
lastly, dogs today ain't spoiled brats. thou senior off today.. i can still manage. =)
bathed a guinea pig today. lol* her name piggy. she's all black but cute. but i think the shower head really startled her tat she squirmed =.=
when i first started working as a pet groomer in bedok, i didn't really get to work on small animals except dogs. working in this place now im really contented. whenever i recall of my old work place i'll get reminded of many people. my old boss. she is very understanding and gave me lots of advices. more of a friend den a superior. sometimes i really wished to send her a msg telling her im living well now and express my gratitude but i couldn't find the courage. sighs. another one is someone special.
someone who once liked me but i've hurt him.. many times i wanted to talk to him, telling him the actual reason why i've rejected him. i liked him tat time but just couldn't shake the feeling of getting betrayed by my ex. i feel guilty as i lied to him and hid my feelings. all i can say is we know each other at the wrong time. just after a failed relationship.. i was devastated at tat time and ill-treated myself but he nv once despise me. now i have overcome the emotional burden but he's not there for me anymore.
needless to say, i deserved it. guess he like someone else now.
not fated bahh..

2009-08-31T21:57:00.005+08:00

late for work today.. overslept. rushed out and reached at 10.50 am. thankfully boss wasn't there.
work was tough today. had trouble doing a schnauzer cut as he kept on figeting. i love white schnauzer the most so i couldn't bear to scold. =( but it wasn't tat bad till a shih tzu came in.
P.S: i dislike SHIH TZUs
they are a dog breed filled with lazy bones and their flat muzzle doesn't do any help to make me like them. this area is the most difficult to clip. and it's smelly and teary. eww. but it's the most common dog. zZzzz...
was covered with scratches and bitten marks again. thanks to cow cow-shih tzu. wad can i do? i chose this job myself.. everyday back from work i'll stare at my own arms and fingers.. dry and nails chipped... and the pain lingered on till a new one replaced it. feeling even sadder today as my back tooth is growing. it hurts even when im drinking water. brushing teeth and eating now is a pure torment.
wad a bad day. arghhs*

2009-08-30T23:05:00.010+08:00

HELLOx-

tmr the last day of the month!! hopefully boss will give me my salary tmr so i can clear my handphone bills and do some shopping!! gonna buy some additional grooming tools and my mummy's birthday present. probably a few more inventory to my wardrobe =p

at work;

today i did one maltese puppy and senior commented tat i did well. i dun think so until a few customers came by and say it look so cute. =)) happy to hear tat.. cus when she came, she was dirty and her fur was in a mess. and im the one who did a makeover for her. guess tat's something a groomer wishes to hear and do the most. for the past two days senior and me was really tortured by bad customers; siao gau.. lols dogs are somehow like humans. have their own character. some are gentle and lovable, some agressive and a few mental cases. signs*
sinful dinner;
had dinner with mum and dad at nearby foodcourt. dunno why dad had a
sudden good mood and he ordered truck loads of dishes. a jumbo sized fish head steamboat, grilled sambal stingray, chicken wings and rojak. just the fish head steamboat filled up 3/4 of my stomach. the fish slices are fresh but thumbs down for the stingray. yucks. the fish is like dead when they caught.. so it's not at all yummy. =( it's supposed to be favourite! how disappointing.. all my family members are small eaters. in the end, we didn't finish all the food and it's such a waste. wished tat sher and clay was here too.. =(

i'm a lazy BUM;

sher passed her basic theory ytd.. i was supposed to take my test too with her but i couldn't make it. the shop was most busiest on weekends. guess i'll book another test date on my off day. justina passed her advance theory also. im the only one left out. just plain lazy of me.. kekek* but even if i have a car license i have no car to drive too. zZzz.

recently i've got a habit of watching youtube. every day back from work. mostly are past tv serials.. some watched before some not yet. shows on tv now are running out of creativity. repeated scenes and story lines, just tat the actors are different.
yawns. life's plain boring. i guess i'm gonna be bored for the rest of my life.
however, pleasee dun throw any more challenges on me already. i want an exciting life minus the hardships. lol* who don't anyways....

a tiring day.

2009-08-29T03:07:00.003+08:00

at work;

did 4 full and 1 basic grooming today. senior off today and only boss and me coping. there are two modes of my speed.. slow and very slow. =( boss did 6 full grooming and a few basics. lose counts of it also.. zZz. heard from him tat ytd tat there are no dogs for senior to groom. poor him. however, after he left there are 2 full and 2 basic. lol* so suay. who call him so lazy wan faster go home luh. i've calculated my today earnings.. by right i should have earned $92.25. on fridays, this considered alot. cant really imagine the months on x'mas and cny. my hands would probably give way.

at home;

sher not in again.. and only left me and mum. dad nowhere to be seen. hais* i should have been used to this but i still feel disappointed with a home like tat. ate leftovers from ytd mummy's cooking.. still taste yummy thou.

heard from Jeff, he's gg for a brain operation later 7am. hope things will go smoothly and he'll recovered promptly. really happy to know his dad will be along to accompany him.. reminded me of tat unfateful day when i got admitted to hospital with nobody by my side. tat feeling.. i dun wish to rmbr it...

just finished with my new blogskin, edited my template and url. time to sleep. zZz(-.-)

changing my blog url.

2009-08-28T01:28:00.005+08:00

sher, with a new look =D she went for a laneige makeover and they permed her hair. pretty, isn't it?
love these few days weather, rainy and cooling. and this is fall, few more days to my favourite month.. september. i was wondering how will i spend my birthday, with how many of my friends rmbr.. =(
spend my off day sleeping.. from 5 am thursday morning till afternoon 5.30 pm. good 12 hrs plus rest. den got awaken by sher phone call telling me to accompany her as a shopping guru. walked till 8 pm den headed home. had to rushed back for my lesson too. wondering should i take up the violin grade examination.. =( wendy encouraged me to give it a try as i can coach students with grade 5 and earn extra income.. sounds good but for now, i just want to play violin as part of my leisures.. never thot tat much. exams ain't cheap and it's not easy.. =(
it's getting late, time for me to sleep again. zZz(-.-)
sometimes, dreams are much better facing the reality. lol*

note: my blog url will be changed to www.x-frostheart-x.blogspot.com

time flies

2009-08-27T00:40:00.005+08:00

this week seems to pass really fast, tmr is my off day again.

today there was only 3 dogs.. Jaff did 2 and i did 1. it was real boredom sitting there staring into blank space as time passes by. read cleo, did some "shopping" around the estate and had my lunch. still no dogs and i bathed bobo and maia before leaving at 6.30 pm. kinda worry tat if i were to earn by commission, and days are like this how am Jaff and i manage to survive? hahah. but he reassured me tat today is just an eceptional.

pay day is coming finally and im aiming for a burberry wallet. but! mummy's birthday around the corner so i'll have to set this aside =(( today after work i accompanied shersher to buy mum's present and she bought scholl shoes. she earns so much but always so niao de. lol* since tmr my off day i'll make a trip to town and see wad i can buy for mummy, soon bian check out burberry pink nova range and the pricing. actually i prefer LV damier canvas but it's just too common. in fact, there are no two identical burberry wallets.

talked about shopping and town really reminds me of my friends.

i really miss them! =( some of them are going to Thailand at the end of this month.. they told me to go along but i cant put my job aside. partly is bcus he is not there.

now, i only wished i can excel in my job and master my scissoring skills.. tat's my wish for the time being. for other aspect, i wouldn't dare to set any goals, nor to even dream of any.

mr right, pls dun lose ur way and let me wait too long..

my choice.

2009-08-26T03:30:00.007+08:00

im not an angel, nor a saint.
im just a normal human.. greedy and selfish.
dun have to be apologetic or guilty towards me. this decision i've chosen, it's just for the benefit for myself only.
i used to recall, did i made the right decision? and now, my answer is yes. even if time machine exists, i'll still make the same decision.
reason why i chose to leave this entanglement?...

simply bcus i just wanted a relieve. there bound to be sacrifices, but it's worth it. if this is a solution den why not? i can free myself from endless sufferings and at least he wont be trapped in between.

my life had been miserable. but i've found the purpose of living finally..

loving someone isn't necessarily means having him/her by ur side, is to let him go. this sentence which i've always heard.. now i could finally decipher and digest.

feelings may fade due to time, but most importantly, the purpose remains there.

everything happened for a reason. it's impossible to foresee, so nobody's at fault. so far, no regrets.

lastly, to all.. the past is meant to be reminisced, not to be brood over. therefore, embrace every moment, including tough times and keep going forth.

let pictures do the talking

2009-08-22T21:10:00.009+08:00

wednesday; at work
angora dwarf

thursday; at music school
mini-sized violins, viola, celo and double bass.

friday; at work
puppy cut spotting.. does it look good? i did this.

saturday; at work
new born puppies by boss' shih tzu for sale.

me;

forcing a smile.

barely surviving..

big dogs @@

2009-08-17T19:52:00.004+08:00

today at work..

got kaka by this husky TT
see by his face he's v fierce. but he's as timid as a mouse! cut his nails he freak out and turned around and bite my hand.. luckily he didn't bite hard, if not my hand gone case.. xiuxiu says u see luh! told u to eat more already.. ur hand looked like bone so he mistook ur hand for it. =.=
took a photo of him to rmr him for life! now my vein hurts.
and this is my work place, my table =)
did 2 big dogs today, husky and golden. love the golden to bits!! she's really docile compared to tat husky.
had a hard time showering and blowing him dry. splash water on me and im thoroughly wet. sian diao. and when i blow dry him all the under coat fly out all stick on my clothes. end up i look just like him. husky no. 2
tat schnauzer in the corner is a real sweetie. i want him back home!!! but cant.. =(( wanted to cuddle him more but golden dun allow.. hahah. notti shasha, like tat also jealous..
had a mini fridge and now it's filled with my drinks. all sort of flavour polka teas. senior asked me wad i usually drink and i told him bottled polka tea but i didn't specify. den he bought all flavours for me. really touched =)
having dinner now, mummy's curry! long time never eat liao. too bad sher never come home today. i can have more.. hais, gonna slp alone tonight again. thot i could chat with her.. received her msg and i was hopeful but turned out she wont be coming home.. =(
emo again..

such a coincidence.

2009-08-16T22:59:00.007+08:00

worked till 8 30 and walked my way to mrt...
board the train and after 1 stop, i discovered some one really familiar sitting opposite me.. after a closer look, i realised it's my ex.. =.=
suprise tat y i took so long to identify him. he texted me telling me to take gd care of myself, and dun reply..
i'll definitely take care, it's my own body and im the sole responsible for this. i'll find my own happiness one day.. not long from now.
at work;
today had loads of doggies.. jammed. lining up waiting for their turns.. boss went fishing so didn't came down. instead a part timer came down. her name grace. heard from senior she worked for 2 years in grooming. but dun look like.. LOL* senior kept on bad mouthing her.. cus she took her own sweet time doing her stuffs. using 2 and half hours shaving botak. i only had 1 month 2 weeks of experience yet i did a botak taking 35 mins.. @.@ even lady boss told senior tat my hands are faster den her.. no wonder they dun like her..
something really hilarious at the end of the day, senior finished off earlier den he swept the floor ard me and his only.. at first im not aware of it. while waiting for the doggy to spa, i swept her area. senior came in and laugh.. u silly girl, i wanted her to do it herself cus she always dun do her part.. =.=
hoping time fast forward to 3 months later, i'll be able to earn by commission. senior calculated for me, by the rate im doing now, i should be able to earn $10 per hour. so it's like $80 per day.. $2k per month... $.$ looking forward to it!!! =D
7th month coming soon, this friday. although im an athetist, i still believe spirits does exist. grace told us to burn joss paper and pray so no mishaps will happen during our work. for example, injuring the dogs. as grace injured a few dogs during her work during tat month last year when she nv give offerings. i wont do it, for sure.
i'll just be extra careful.
wondering how is xuan doing in the nether world. think after september 15th den i'll be able to put my mind at ease. will be doing her ritual on tat day.. spend $1.6k for this, have to avoid lots of activities and have to eat vegetarian for 7 days, 3 days before and after.. i'll do anything for your sake. mummy owe u too much..
just rmr i love u, if u could.

signing off~

present. past

2009-08-15T21:34:00.007+08:00

been thru another day at work.. today was pretty tiring. my legs are feeling weak again.. nearly lose my balance after standing up from squatting down to pick up some stuffs.. abit giddy and my vision blurred a little.
i did a schnauzer myself today. boss was full of comments about it. kinda sad. i thot it look pretty gd. =( guess i didn't really rest enough last night again. was playing myself some sad theme songs. hopefully my neighbours dun find it a disturbance.
he finally came online.. chat thru abit with him. but mostly about his army. he seems fine.. just a little frustrated about the life inside.. hopefully he'll be able to stay happy and think positively.
hasn't been contacting with justina since den, anyways she got a bf.. just like sher.. sher always been away. i know she care and loves me alot but i really hope she'll text me asking about me.
sometimes im feeling depressed. we are all humans, but why do some like me had such a hard time in life? had already passed thru so much unhappiness..
had a bad childhood, no memorable primary school days, after going to secondary school.. days were slightly better. had my best cliques but i actually spend my everyday with my ex. neglected my friends and studies.. wasted. after he left me, i realised. but it's kinda too late, my O level results only entitled me to lousy courses in polys.. went for ite in a engineering science course.. thinking i will have a brand new start and progressing to sp. yet i forgotten my lesson.. love ruined me once again. been really stupid and an idiot.
sacrificing for loved ones, is it noble? or foolish..? these few days i've been asking myself . why.. never had an answer.

signing off~

love is like an outer space, full of mystery and its unexplainary. but as we put in effort, things can be discovered.. but to limitations.

all was well.. not.

2009-08-15T00:42:00.008+08:00

ytd nite i didn't slp well..
tossing and turning on my bed.. from 1 am till 4 am.

looking thru our pictures and videos.. been thinking of him, all the times we are tgt.. those few months on how we started to know each other well and the nites we've spend outside with the rest of them.. had moments alone with u too, sharing secrets.. but always felt as if there's a barrier between us which stopped us from getting closer..
do u know how it hurts to keep this to myself? i realised i had really developed a feeling toward you.. hadn't forgot u since the day u went bmt.. thot i would, but i cant do it. im afraid if i had really confessed face to face, u'll leave me... i feared tat i wont be able to see u again. even if we remain as friends forever, i'll be really contented. hadn't been hearing from u, and i missed you. he didn't come online these 2 weeks.. wondering how is his life getting on, had his flu fully recovered? does his back still hurts? hopefully he wont always need to rely on medications anymore..

today senior asked me to go for a dinner these few days if im free.. he had been treating me well. teaching and guiding me along the way.. but out for dinner after work i dun think im on. i think the main reason is because i dun wan anyone to like me anymore.. i might be thinking too much, but it just a prevention.. sometimes im wondering why im shutting myself up, wads really wrong with me? idk too....

the sky and ocean might remained as blue.. even after a hundred or thousand years, but my heart doesn't feel the same as before.. im changing.. i dun even understand myself a single bit now.. the earth's revolving.. wad is my purpose living in this world? do my existence really make a difference at all..?

my new violin! loves~

2009-08-13T22:43:00.007+08:00

finally thursday is here and went down to collect my new violin. and woah, this sounds better den my old one. ^^ loves it lots! teacher says tat one week never see me i looked so shag.. =( and full of scratches as he notices my left hand and arm. started to nagged at me saying why i didn take good care of myself.. at 1st i was irritated by his lecturing, but soon i realised he was just concerned about me. practised alot just now alone at home, cant wait to show him my improvements next coming week =) tmr going back to work again.. instead of feeling sick, im actually missing them all.. hmm hmm.. signing off, blog tmr after work!

days as usual.

2009-08-12T01:16:00.004+08:00

went off for off today as usual.. Jaff didn come for work today.. always mia de sia. =/ tmr is xiuxiu off day. argh~ have to slog one more day before i deserve my break. heh* injuries again.. thumb hurts. T.T blade cuts and got pricked by splint.. mummy removed it for me using magnifying glass. lol*

kept receiving annoying msges from jason.. hais* how many times must i repeat its impossible betwwen me and him.. gave him lots of hints liao and kept a distance. the 1st time he told me he wanna jio me, i dun wanna hurt his feeling so i say let nature takes its course. 2nd time was 1 week ago, saying he misses me badly. =S wtF. i didn reply cus i can be blunt. and many other nonsensical msges saying he cant live w/o me.. he dun wan anything now except me. DUH. this is only one of the many. i couldn't stand it and i told him we can only be friends. but i dun think he'll give up. =/

wads so great about me anyways. i dun wanna be the bad one who break ppl's hearts. already turned down 3 good guys. dun wanna go to hell.. cant they realise my bad points..? im just a demanding girl who need lots of attention and love. i gave so much tat the other party had to leave me cus they felt they dun deserved it....

tmr night after work gg st james power station and justina asked jason along... LOL and she ask me if im okay with it. hurhur.. even she can feel it also. seriously if he go, i wont go. tc once said to me.. if u wan to forget someone u like, the best way is to stop seeing him/her and dun contact anymore. true enough. so i'll use this tactic on him..

i guess the two main reason for me to perservere in this job now is 1. high pay 2. stability
seriously i dread looking at dogs now. cus when i see them in their dirty, horrid state, i just freak out. why some owners dun take care of their dogs when they have this responsibility?! let their skin get rashes and ear infection... stinkies. im a groomer, not a pet care taker. signs*

this past week i've been surviving with one meal per day. dinner. jeff told me the ways to lose weight.. to seperate 3 meals into 5 meals as to increase body metalbolism rate.but im even lazy to eat. just wanna use my lunch time to learn more. boss see me he thot i wanna jian fei. hahah. but he's always kind enough to buy me drinks and today, herbal tea. =)) he said my cutting skills has improved. and now, he taught me different styles in a day. how can i remember. signs. maltese, cocker spaniel, schnauzer, poodle, westies, shih tzu.. now if i see a jack russel coming in, i'll be over the moon. hahah. think i better act dumb abit.
dun wanna stress up myself.

gotta catch some slp.. tmr a long night. =))

ciao!

got my scissors!

2009-08-10T21:45:00.007+08:00

today i got my own scissors and thinner!! boss told me to bring home my scissors to practise handling.. hahah. yet wad i did was to take pics with it.. and this dumb piece cost $100.. my ex boss uses a rainbow-coloured scissors tat cost $300 zZz(-.-)... when i become a professional groomer, i'll get one for myself too.. ^^

now my salary is still pathetic. my senior, jaff earns by commision. per dog he draws 50%... T.T so good.. after 3 months den i'll earn thru commission too, but only 45% nia.. sad sad* if one day got only 5 dogs he already got $100 liao lorhs. lidat per month he take home at least $2.6k hais. so envious... time passes, i've already worked there for a week liao. today im late for work. hahah. but boss didn scold me. still smile and say, eh today still consider p.H leh, so must reach at 10 am. seriously i dunno! i thot for sat sun and P.H only.. i wonder how much does xiuxiu earns. think $1k plus bahh. she next door work as sales, always come in kajiao us. so good de.. not much customers, v free but she always find things to do.. tat's y boss like her v much. sales a sucky line to be in.. those boutique or departmental stores.. working hours so damn long and stand all day. greet smile and serve. yucks. been in tat line for 2 yrs and it's enough. lol*

`~* my snipsnip *~`

btw, i think im the 1st person trained by boss. but the way he demostrate to me the technique to cut, i cant grasp it.. maybe it's because he is left-handed. jaff still teaches better.. used to work years for petslover grooming centre in serangoon.

see they cut like so damn easy.

snip snip snip den it's done.. but i got headache when i try to do it myself.. both of them say must picture an image 1st, den u know how to do it liao. =(

this coming thurs will be my off day! 2 more days to go... wed nite see if can jio jus out to club or ktv. got almost 2 weeks nv see them liao. tc still in army haven pop. sian... if not, can come out chill tgt.. hopefully 3 months later i can get converted to commission-based.. den can go overseas again with them! kekek* okays, time for my bath and go into lala land.. sweet dreams to me. =D

a mishap.

2009-08-08T21:06:00.008+08:00

feeling so shag today.. energy depleted =S
1 or 2 more days to go still.. skipped my lunch again. strange enough i dun feel hungry at all. w/o breakfast lunch and water from 10 am to 7 plus. only felt tiredness. boss knew tat den he told me to go off earlier..
plus today, jaff, my senior injured a dog pingping on her eyelid. sad... i dunno wad happen but he said tat ping jerked when he is trimming her face. he immediately sent her to the vet. i dunno who paid for the medical fees but boss didnt charge a single cent for her buddy, anan. think she will dread grooming for her entire life bahh. sometimes i really fear when im handling scissors.. such things are hard to say... hope ping recover soon.

looking forward to next thursday violin lesson. so i can collect my new violin as i just bought a better violin to replace my old spoil one.. shipment takes 1 week.. sian* now want to play a tune for myself to de-stress also cant. hais. when will i be able to master the full song of the secret garden. =( so difficult. think i better go slp early. another long day to go tmr.....

been tired to blog.

2009-08-07T21:36:00.011+08:00

well, just let me sum up what i've been doing for these past 6 days. hahah!
1stly; thanks a whole lot to Jeff for his recommendation! i love this job ^^ it had been 3 days since i've working and tat's y i have not been blogging. sleepy and tired. =( everyday starting work at 10.30.. thankfully it's only at yishun.

boss and lady boss are v gd to me. thou i have prior experience in dog grooming, my skills are still entry level. intially, i thot... die! he must have pinned alot of hopes on me... this time im gonna disappoint them. instead, he taught me the advanced methods. hahahah. which is the sign tat he approved on me and wanted me to soar higher. sometimes, i think i shouldn't always set such high expectations of myself. =/

now trying to master the art of handling scissors. tmr im gg to have my own grooming kit. boss says he'll get for me. and... pay for me as well! lol* so nice~ i dun have to fork out $800... ytd i skipped lunch cus i wanted to finish my work on hand. then, today lady boss bought lunch and drinks for me... so touched* boss says dun puasa again ahh! later ppl thot i bully u... hahahah..

so far... im getting used to this job again. thou it had been 4 months since i've last work with dogs.. again. kena bite by aggressive dogs and scratch by nails. new scars covering my old scars.

reason? not i bully them okays. is when blow dry them, they were so scared den hugged so tightly to my arms. lol* so loving but.. ouchs.. however, i love it with they rest their head on my shoulders and sobbed to my ears.

i guess im gg to stick to this job for my entire life =D just pray hard tat my wrist dun get fracture le.. now im wondering when will be my off day.. sian* cus now they still haven arrange the schedule yet.. but weekends are definitely out. =( so another 2 more days still. way to go, meredith =D

P.S: Jeff. thou u might think im silly but i really can't find another better way to express my gratitude. tat ice cream i treated u ain't able to express all and the satisfaction im experiencing now. wish u will stay in the best state of health and be happy everyday!

signing off.

shopping =D

2009-08-01T21:46:00.005+08:00

itchy itchy~

went imm today after accompany shersher enroll and booked our test dates end of august. korkor nv come along due to NDP rehearsal. hahahah. so no one nag at me! =D

i went to try out this fish spa!! at first was so ticklish=S but those fishes are so cute. feasting on my feet. kekek* den we went to shop and bought nearly the whole imm home. bought some knitting materials, maquillage, skin care, wakaba scented incense etc..

for dinner, we went Ajisen and i had crayfish ramen. my favourite! after dinner, accompanied sher for her manicure and pedicure at pinc. so ex o.O this thingy took almost 1 hour... zzz(-.-) almost felt asleep.. den we walk walk around Daiso and it's time for me to go home liao. sher will worry for me when im alone. love ya love ya! now i miss u so much=(

hope kor faster go home from NDP to pei u.

hahah* time for me to watch a new movie liaos.

bbdc tmr

2009-08-01T02:28:00.005+08:00

why does he look so perfect..? ^^ cool picture of River found from google.
1st august...
meeting shersher tmr at 11.45am at bukit gombak to accompany her enroll into bbdc. so bad de jiejie, every weekends always go bf hse nv peipei wo. hais* i enrol tat day with jus le but not yet book test date still. actually can book on9 also luh but dun want stay at home. go out breathe in fresh air also gd. =)
next mon starting work liao. as outdoor sales co-ordinator for event company. wonder how will it be like. hmm hmm. outdoor sales somemore lehh. no experience at all. =( anyways, better den g2000.. cooping myself up in a shopping mall.
i just finish watching fated to love you~ good ending =D thumbs up!
hahah. thou i feel sad for Dylan. put in so much effort but Elaine still chose Z. love is lik tat bahh. cannot force. some may seemed like the right one but in fact they are just the passer-by.. but he is really cute! somehow he has an uncanny resemblance of my part time colleague at g2000! shikai. lols* i wonder y i always prefer the one getting rejected instead of the male lead.. =/ the same goes to all shows i've watched. even boys over flowers. Ji-hoo is better den Jun-pyo. however, sher have different taste from me.
alright luh, time to orrorr le.
if tmr morning cannot wake up on time, i may need a hearing aid for life. =(

NOTE: thank you to all my pals for reading my blog all this while! thou the one i wished tat will read my blog hasn't noticed this yet.. nevertheless, i'll still greatly appreciate u all. (^^,) nites~

hav been lazy =D

2009-07-31T12:35:00.003+08:00

2 days since i last blogged!

29th
yeah. finally they patched up =) i knew their relationship will be strong enough to overcome this and a little is due to my help. hahah* now he know not to take my fren for granted liao. ^^
tat night for clubbing, we went to phuture, so damn packed. but it was great!
i drank super lamborghini, apple shooter and tequila shot; so salty =S but no feeling of getting drunk. =.= think im wasting money.. just a few moments of euphoria den back to normal after a few songs. sian lo. before we went in, we still drank 4 bottles of heineken leh. thou split by 4 luh.. hahah.
on the dancefloor i encounter this really funny guy, out of nowhere just grabbed me by my hand and waist lo.. introduces himself and ask my name. of course, im stunned. but i rejected his offer as i just wanted to stay by tc. when this incident occur, i could see the reaction on his face, lols. eyes like this---> O.O later he ask me if i knew tat guy.. and he told his fren off.. say do ur job leh! protect luh..
but i can take care of myself.. =) this is not in batam.

30th
we partied till our backs feel like breaking. 3 am in the morning.. we walked our way to great world city 7-11 for some drinks. know wad jus did? she threw her heels away cus her feet hurts den walked barefooted.. =.= when she passed by some sandy dirty patches, she squirmed. wanted tc or me to carry her. but i just told her to picture this as sentosa.
we slack outside 7-11 till 4 plus den we cab home. as tc promised, he will send me home 1st. hmm. great world city to tpy den to jurong west. and he din take a single cent from me for the cab fare. i like someone who kept his promises =) thou we are frens.. now and forever. after i reached home it's already 5am in the morning. mum about to go set up her stall but im just about to go into my lala land. as i think of him, i fell asleep. till next afternoon.. 5pm. hehe*
woke up and shower and back to catching up on my fav drama again. acting more and more like drama fanatic. must faster watch finish liao. if not start work den no time to watch le. did nothing today except wasting time. so sinful =(

31st
today he finally go back to tekong liao. due to H1N1 im able to see him a week more but im not thankful to it. just hoped he'll feel more better as compared to the last few days. later im going to keep on emailing my resume till i find the best job. rather den hastily finding one and regret again. hmm hmm. post again soon.

if money grows on trees =(

2009-07-29T12:33:00.004+08:00

ytd didn't go clubbing. rmr wrongly luh. thot ytd was wednesday =.= so we only went shopping. 313 still under construction yet to be completed.. went ion shop shop. impressive! so many brand names i've nv heard b4. lots of made in japan food. if i can try each of every one den i'll be really contented. =D but the queue is too long. saw a fren of tc which looks sweet but her nose piercing really spoil her image. lol* hmm.. earlier tat afternoon i went for the dietary consultant interview and sun hav to attend a talk and training. so sian.. dun feel like gg. still waiting for the zoo to call me. =(( if i can be a zoo keeper den gd lerh. hais.

blog tonight after clubbing~

2009-07-28T02:37:00.005+08:00

hahah. tmr gg for my job interview for the position of dietary consultant.. some sort of nutritionist. lol* a job tat i nv expect i'll end up in. =p

woots. tmr gonna be so busy. meeting up with jus and tc for shopping! down orchard road maybe to newly opened ion and 313. den heading down for clubbing again. yay yay*

looking forward to tmr! im going to intoxicate myself with super lamborghini this time, instead of just flaming lamborghini. ouhh! back to watching my taiwanese drama again.. Fated to love you! weets weets* loves~

P.S: i like to grant others happiness, but too bad some dun appreciate my efforts. superficial souls. pathetic. =(

new routine

2009-07-26T20:09:00.005+08:00

i didn't sleep for the whole nite ytd. yawn* early morning 5.30 i accompany my mum to her stall to help out for the 1st time. hahah* althou it's tedious work but enjoyed it cus i lightened her work load. i shall implement this to a part of my daily life or maybe my off days.

i left her stall at 7.30 after the neighbour stall boss arrived. den went to roof top garden opposite my block for some workout.. warm up and jogged for 20 mins. i used to hate the feeling of perspiration, tats y the sports i did was only swimming. but tpy swimming complex closed down due to renovation den im left with no choice but to try out jogging.

after i reached home around 8 plus, i rested for a couple of minute b4 gg for a shower. and slept till now. hehe* my greatest worry now is tonight i cant sleep again! hopefully i can force myself to sleep den wake up early to help my mum again..

cabal-ing reminds me of u

2009-07-25T19:52:00.004+08:00

today spend the whole day at hm nuah. so sian den played cabal online while reminiscing the days when we train level tgt. sweet memories and sad ones. wondering will u think of me still?
u told me to take care but i didn't. now im stuck in a shyt situation again.
hahahah. althou matters regarding money are the most easier to solve with dad around but i dun wan to sink in deeper. i dun wan his help anymore. i will settle this problem myself this time and repay him back asap. even if i have to sacrifice my studies..

he's out of my mind, for good

2009-07-25T01:20:00.007+08:00

today jus accompanied me for the cpt interview. must wait for 2nd interview next week. den after interview met up with ah bao and jason for steamboat near bugis. den ah bao received tc phone cal saying tat he was being sent back home as he is suspected to hav contracted H1N1. ohmygawd! dun spread to me pleassee. not tat im afraid to die or whatsoever, i want to work and earn money! hopefully my immune system will protect me. =((
after i heard he's sick, i msged him asking how he is, and suprisingly he called me back asking who am i. duh.. either he changed phone due to ns or he sick till cant rmr me. anyways, im happy tat i've got over him. im very worried for him as i'll do too if it happens to any of my frens. hope he dun misunderstood anymore. hahahah. xD
tonight i told jason not to send me home, i'll take mrt since it's still early. dun wan trouble him everytime. i will ps also. after i reached home, he text me asking if he can jio me. dun wanna hurt his feelings, i said let nature takes it's course. but to be truthful, i dun hav tat special feelings for him now. maybe in the future, i wont know.
for me, i dun take love seriously anymore. ever since my ex left me, the way he cheated my feelings. it's really enough. after he left me, i've totally changed into another person. for those who know me long enough, shall realise.

P.S: to them if they happen to came across- its my fault things turned out this way. u two were my best friends whom i trust and shared secrets with. i apologise for my impulsiveness guys.
BEst regARds and Take Care.

got drunk ytd =(

2009-07-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

early afternoon b4 i go out for the farewell party, i receive a letter from my previous company. letter on the breech of contract and i hav to pay a hefty sum of $3.2 k it totally dampen my mood. which im already feeling sad about tc leaving us for ns. ytd nite i din drink alot, just tat i drink martell without mixer.

tc asked his 4 frens along and 3 of them got drunk so easily. =.= and they quarrel etc. but tc was drunk and he was sleeping. den jus and jason helped out to resolve the conflict. me? i was busy looking at him asleep. after a few songs and games, the effect of the liquor began to take effect and i slpt too. when jus woke me up, they were about to go home. felt like vomiting but nothing comes out. zZz(-.-)

after tc cabbed off, i went home too and slept till next morning. had many weird dreams tat nite. sometimes i just dun wanna wake up and face this world, the reality. this afternoon, i spend the whole day glazing at our batam trip photo. when will we have the chance to go on a trip again? really miss those days. snivels*

P.S: i love all of my friends! may they all live life happily and stay in great health.

finally~ batam trip pics

2009-07-23T16:58:00.032+08:00

on our way to batam island~

slacking in our cosy nest ^^

ktm resort playground lols*

bumpy cars~!

getting ready for jacuzzi XD

took some pics while waiting for cab

choosing crabbies

the Pacific Palace Hotel

faster take a pic b4 it set sail. hahah

packing up and leaving for city tours

heehee*

small tiny houses!

seafood lunch stickers.

on city tour bus

opposite of us, polo ralph lauren

our scrumptious seafood lunch. yummy~

ah bao and tc on stage.

i love motobike!

2009-07-22T01:51:00.006+08:00

ytd i accompanied jus to bukit merah clinic to get some med for her injuries. her wounds are recovering but may get inflammed if not treated with care. hmm. hopefully it wont leave any scars. =(
later we took bus to IMM for dinner. met up with the usual friends again but he din came. den we all decide to go jurong safra to play lan. jason came on his bike and i told him to bring me there. heheh. too bad jus and bao hav to take bus. anyways they are cpl, it'll be bad to tag around also. wows* 1st time on a bike, feeling was great =DD thou at 1st i was worried i might fall off. lol*
tc came along much later. i thot i can let go of him, but when i see him, those feelings came back. fcuking useless im. when we are playing l4d, once, i fell off the top floor to the 2nd floor. while i've just starting to find my way up he came down to guide me. he's sitting far away from me so at 1st i dunno it's him. thot it was others or the computer. anyways tats helpful of him.
after tat jason drove me to nearby coffee shop for supper while the rest of them took bus. shiok. for tat whole nite. we din talked at all. only shared conversation btw all of us. think he felt awkward. cus of tat incident. he left early, said tat he has work tmr morning. din even say goodbye. =.=
jason drove me home so i dun hav to waste cab fare. really many thanks to him. when i reached home lying on my bed, i cried while thinking of him. and this will be the last time. he dun deserve it. looking forward to tmr farewell party for him. i'll find someone who will appreciate me.

`~*i will definitely get over u, a promise to myself*~`

Jaeha

2009-07-20T03:25:00.003+08:00

Jung Eui-Chul !! so cute.

picture grabbed from his fan blog. forgot wads the name. thanks anyways. =)

edited my postings and added colours.
cus i had nothing better to do now. turning into panda liaos. @.@
dream monster... take me away~~~~~ chapat chapat!

so sleepy yet cannot sleep again =(

2009-07-20T02:18:00.007+08:00

hmm hmm. wondering if i'm suffering from insomnia. rawr* my eyes cant barely open wide now. went swimming today again. cooping up at home makes me go bonkers. den went to petlovers and bought lots of things to pamper yuanyuan(my chinchilla) dried strawberries, parsley, apple sticks and gnawing lava bites. hahah. she's now making lots of noise with the bell attached to the gnawing block. long time nv dote on her liao. spend a little bit more also nvm. thou now im jobless. =((
hais. he is online now but i dun wanna talk to him anymore. lol* it's over. good or bad? depends on how one decipher. seriously, it doesn't matter much to me. cus i'm the latter. =S
today i finally made up my mind to go for nursing in NYP. wasted two years in ite and accepted a love tat landed me in deep trouble. thou my L1R4 KNS.. i should be able to get in. cus nobody really enjoy being a nurse; shift work, deals with life and death, blood, complicated medical reports, pharmacology la, oncology la, DNA and health infomatics blah blah blah.. btw, i should really thanks Justina for re-igniting my passion.. hur hur. i had been thinking since the 2nd last semester of my ite days. even thot of dropping out from chemical process tech. but it'll be such a waste. since graduation, i hav been in a dilemna. work? or study. continuing poly in cpt is definitely out of the question as i dreaded engineering. anyways.. it's all behind me. now, i've made a plan.
i'll find a job now, preferably as a clinic assistant till next year jan. i'll start off 1st by applying for ITE nursing. partially is to gain insight and another one.. to act as a back up. hehe.
note: my main priority is to find job 1st!!! eeks.

batam trip; 2 days 1 night of intoxication (DAY II)

2009-07-18T17:22:00.004+08:00

breakfast at 8am
buffet breakfast, which serves toast, fried rice, char kway tiao, congee, mushroom omelette and hot tea/ coffee. cant really say it's tasty but the egg omelette is really wholesome. hot, thick and eggy. after breakfast, we got our bag ready for the city tour.
1st stop: Polo Ralph Lauren
the tour guide brief us on the difference of Polo and Polo Ralph Lauren. Polo is the fake one, my sis tat time bought the wrong brand. ROFL* hmm. the price there is half of the retail price in Singapore. v reasonable price but i didn't buy any as the design are somehow outdated.
2nd stop: local goods mart and ralph lauren shirts again =.=
saw alot of stuffs tat i used when im young as i used to stay in Tanjung Pinang and Pulau Bulu; my mum's hometown. wood crafted toys and merchandise, ointments and traditional costumes. preserved fruits and prunes etc.. keropok occupied mainly the whole shop. hahah*
3rd stop: Seafood lunch at the same place again as the night b4!!! o.O
coincidently the tour guide brought us here. heh heh* all jason's faut say want eat seafood last night. but this time on the table was grouper with ketchup, cereal prawn, fried calamari, chap pa lang soup. and the rest are same dishes as ytd.. chilli crab, gong gong and sambal kang kong. this time round, i didn't eat the crab. but jus say it tastes better den last night. hahah! really a very big feast. hopefully i dun grow fat. XD afer lunch, i was served by Indonesia coconut. it taste really different from those i had in Singapore as they are from Thailand. Those taste sweet but this taste sour and weird. den, bao and tian went up to the stage to sing!!! realyy kudos to them for tat courage to sing in front of so many ppl. lol* tc sings really well. better den bao, whom everyone thinks he's the best. video of them will be up on facebook. hahahs.
4th stop: theme park, historical park and go kart!
there's a small ferris wheel and slides meant for kids but we rode on them as well. lol* the three guys are really crazy on tat revolving ball tat they makes ppl giddy. hahah. real cute to see them playing like small kids. ^^ Jus and me did nth much but took pictures of them luh. den we went over to the small houses tat wrote the history of indonesian housing, different states live in different structures, and btw rich and poor and different eras. real cute like toy houses, about the same height as me. (photos will be up soon) Jus kept on making bad comments of every houses she saw, eg. this one look like the house for ghost etc..
later on, we went over to the go kart and each play cost $15 sgd if im not wrong. to my disappointment, i cant play cus im wearing skirt. gaarrhhh* den i became the photographer. =( something bad happen to Jus. when she was making a turn on the tracks, she lost control and flipped over and swirled a few rounds. the greatest shock of the day. i saw and quickly ran over. her bf, bao immediately braked and ran over to her. wow. so touching. can see his reaction. like supersonic. lol* she had lots of abrasion on her left shoulders, arms and her right knee. when i helped her bandage she was delirious, somehow in trance. she covered her face and seems vexed. due to shock perhaps. all ppl surrounded her and many tried to help. but the other two still carried on playing =.=
5th stop: traditional dance and stunts performance
the two performers danced to the rythms of the drum and music, den one of them ate glass cup! like eating potato chips. swallowed them all lo.. swt* next was the guy jumped through a hula hoop on fire. heheh* den next was eating burning charcoal.. =.= i wonder y the tongue wont be cooked as well? tc den say it's the protection of their gods. but weird, isn't him a atheist.. lol* too bad jus was injured and she didn't want to watch the performance. so bao acc her. no videos or photos taken for this thou. forgotten to do so. =(
6th stop and last stop of the day
mega mall shopping centre. an hour of free and easy shopping.. hmm hmm. nth to buy lehh. so i bought a hand woven band in memorir of this batam trip. lol* all of us just strolled around and ate J.CO donuts. hahahs i know it's lame cus here also got sell. price is the same. soon it was time and we board to bus back to the custom. sobsob =(
Departure
left at 6.30pm batam time. reached Singapore at 8.45. on the journey back to Singapore, tc was sitting beside me. =)) while he's asleep i also took a few glimpse at him. hahah. cant really take my eyes off him but scare he suddenly wake up due to current or ppl walking around.. the last day i'll be seeing him will be on next wed liao. Since jus hinted so obviously and he say depends on fate. i wont pin too much hope on him. time will slowly make me forget him.. tat's about all. =)) P.S: photos of these trips will be up soon. have to get from Jus ^^

batam trip; 2 days 1 night of intoxication (DAY I)

2009-07-18T15:30:00.006+08:00

meeting up
met up with bao jus tc and jason at 7.30 am at harbourfront control station. damn* they were all late! i was the only one tat's punctual. sulks* tc the last to arrive! luckily he heard my phone call tat woke him up. lols* in the midst of waiting for him, we proceeded to collect our ferry tickets. weets! so excited =DD den we go down to level one to eat breakfast at macdonalds.
checking in
at 8.50 we checked in, den scurried into our ferry; batamfast. instead of sitting on the aircon all of us went to the top deck, an open area where we can see the scenery. hmm hmm. actually no sceneries to indulge in also. hahah. as there's only blue blue sea.
after 55 mins of travelling, we've reached batam! feeling great. =) as if all troubles are all left in Singapore. after those documentations, we took van back to our beach side resort. hmms. the roads in batam hav no traffic lights at all, and they honk* to signal. lol* took quite awhile to reach our KTM resort. it's in a condusive environment compared to other hotel in the city area. tat's the feeling i adore.
our nest
the family cottage is real spacious and the bed comfy too. they hav every facilities i expected. air-conditioned and clean with sea view balcony. o.o to add on, they even hav stove and pots and pans. after unpacking and settling down. we slowly plan the places we wanna go later; as i've did research on places the previous night.
1st stop will definitely be shopping!
we cabbed down to Nagoya Hill shopping centre, two way trip cost about 160,000 rp. the moment we went in, we scout for food 1st. i wanted to eat A&W but some dun wan. =( den they went to BFC aka best fried chicken. lols. they also have KFC thou. yucks lo. the food sucks. drinks also taste weird weird.
we shopped around. i only window shopped as the things there didn't tickle my fancy. next, to arcade! hehehe. played many games including bumpy cars with they all. shoved my way around as my driving skills didn't helped much. lols* but fun thou, banging into all my frens as it was meant to be this way. =p den to family KTV! real cheap. $2 sgd for 2 hours. it's like oh mygawd. the sound quality ain't bad at all. air con is cooling and room was clean. thumbs up =D as our massage appointment was booked at 7pm, we hav to make our way back by 6.30pm. den we did some more last minute shopping at the super mart which looks like Giant. i bought some local confectionaries for my mum and a few cup noodles; which my fren intro tat it tastes great. he bought 1 whole carton @.@ after tat we took cab back to our nest.
getting ready for our spa and massage!
i shared room with justina while three other guys shared the bigger room beside. firstly, i was given a basin of warm water to soak my feet; approx. 38 degrees celsius. omg it's considered too hot for me already but jus still say not hot enough. =.= den the masseur rubbed sea salt on my feet. ticklish. hehehe* i was given a robe to change into, den i stepped into the jacuzzi which they called it hydrotherapy. it has a fusion of flowery and sandalwood scent. pleasurable and bubbling experience. hahah* by 15 mins i was pespirating all over my face. Jus too. like after a marathon. another 15 more mins to soak. but im getting sick of it liaos. =p so i looked at the night sky outside my window while hearing the guys beside laughing loudly and joking around. wondering wad the three of them are up to. den Jus told me tat she helped me hint tc; who he like now. and he say his fren's fren tat we all dunno de. den she ask tc how he thinks of me, den he said depends on fate. i dunno how she ask but it's different from the ans i got from him a few days ago. he said it's someone we know . =/ anyways, next comes the full body massage. at 1st it hurts a little. as she applied too much pressure on my legs and shoulders. but i rmr my sis told me to relax and not get tensed up. and yes, i feel pretty much better. and i began to enjoy it. the guys finish off earlier den us and they was making a commotion outside. asking if we are done. den they start to peep into our window and even wan to open the door. duh* i wasn't wearing anything except tat filmsy robe tat expose my whole back =.= but they didn't open the door fortunately. at the end of the massage, all of us got a cup of ginger tea. eww! i nv drink it. hated ginger.
events coming on tonight; seafood dinner, visit to batam nightclub
scrumptious seafood dinner
we cabbed down to Golden Prawn 933 Seafood Restaurant. journey took around 25 mins. we chose chilli crab, sambal kang kong, tofu hot plate and 'gong gong' batam unique sea snail ; it's a must to try! all cost only $50 sgd. cheap and it taste yummy. except the crabby. disappointed. the chilli is good but the crabby maybe sick. lol* the meat sticks to the shell. the place is surrounded by water and inside, there are fishes tat's at least more den half a metre long. o.O
Nightlife at Pacific Palace Hotel
1st thing tat grabbed my attention! this hotel have an uncanny resemblance to an ocean liner. hahah. the taxi driver told us tat it's a 4 star hotel (max star is 4 star in batam) which cost $80 sgd per night. it's 10 pm batam time and the club is jam-packed with ppl. the music there realy cmi. all out-dated techno. but! at 11pm a group of dancers came out on stage wearing scantily. two guys and 2 girls. all eyes are on the stage. lol* but it's still better in Singapore. safer. why? hahah. i got pulled by hand by a random guy. fortunately im not drunk. my frens den told me to stand closer in. lol* formation. another reason is, almost everyone is taking drugs. can see quite a lot shakng vigorously. like monkey on spasm. we left at 2am , back to our resort.
taking a rest
all of them were dead beat but im still wide awaked. lols* chatted with jason. he liked to ask me qns on y my ex and i broke up. lols* im tired of explaining also liaos. nv did much elaboration. only tc knows wad happened to me exactly. when we went back into the room, the rest of them was in lala land. watched animal planet awhile on tv and soon, i dozed off too.

back from batam! ^^

2009-07-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

enjoyed myself to the max!!! so tired now. time to sleep liao~ zZz(-.-) post about my trip tmr nite!
P.S: the moment u're out of my vision; boy i'll start to miss u.

somehow; trapped.

2009-07-15T02:32:00.004+08:00

to further proceed..? or to back off now. those words tat he say earlier in the msn. no gf means no burden; no liabilities. sharply pierced my heart. feeling so emo now tat i dun wanna tok to anyone.
P.S: sorry ah wee. if u happened to read this. i apologise if i've neglected u. pls pardon me as i need sometime to be alone and think. =(
hmm. no matter wad. i'll still make it clear to him. whenever i hav the chance during batam trip on thurs or farewell party on next wed. even if i face rejection, it doesn't matter. no regrets; it's my style. anyways after he go into NS we wont hav the chance to meet up anymore. shyt* now hav temptation to smoke. luckily hse hav no more cigarettes.
feeling terrible now. T.T

a happy note.

2009-07-13T00:01:00.006+08:00

talking with him on msn now. weet* so happy. 1st time we chat so long on msn. some sort of a great improvement bah. ^^ asked him wads his expectations of his gf.. his response; mature, one who wont do silly things etc. he add on tat those qualities he wan v difficult to find in local girls. hmm hmm. but he din further elaborate =(( however he did mention tat he wan a long term gf. find it weird to heard this from him.. as he's some sort of casanova. lol*

feeling terrible

2009-07-12T15:54:00.004+08:00

this is so unlike of me.. normally i'll go all out to confess my feelings for the guy i like. used to be straight forward and cool. dunno wads happening to me now.. mayb of the past incidents tat makes me feel inferior and confidence seems to seep away. lesser and lesser day by day. i wanted to care for him; but i cant do it the obvious way. he'll be sensitive enough to know and tat's not wad i wan. i dun wish to express myself yet i wanted to know how he feels towards me. sigh* guess situations like this always occured, not only to me. he's always so nonchalant. hates* =(
feel tat time is running out for me. he's gg to be out for another overseas trip and NS on 24th july. should i? should i not? @.@ how i hope someone could advise me on wad to do now.

against all odds. boy; im falling for u indeed.

went out with them

2009-07-12T14:09:00.005+08:00

to chinese garden; jurong east swimming complex with jus, ah bao, ph and tc. we din rent any float cus we r sick of the slides liaos. lol* i was busy coaching jus how to swim. till it start to drizzle again. hmm. rainy season..
later on we went to play lan. L4D again. hahah* this time we hav 5 ppl, so we play versus. so funny to ambush them. den we play mission cus jus headache again due to motion sickness. den we 4 continue. we manage to complete all 4 mission but i din get on the helicopter T.T attacked by boomer cus i fend off for my frens. by den i realised they were all on the helicopter, it was too late. LOL* in memory of zoey XD still got alot of many funny scenarios luh. earlier on in the game, my fren was attacked by smoker, all the rest were dead alrdy. and he screamed for help den my another fren beside me say y i randomly fire from such a far distance. hahah. cus i was lying down on the floor; injured. lol* i did alot of funny things and actions luh, den they all laugh and joke ard. =S but they happy can liao.
next, we went to tc hse, actually wanted to play MJ but his parents ard. better not to disturb them. so we played cards instead. his hse; ohmygawd. big mess. everything over the floor. lol* even more messier den my ex room. on our way to take taxi, as i see tc smoke i got the temptation to smoke again. =(( but thankfully he din let me smoke. but actually i can do w/o cigarettes. jus sad tat things doesn't go my way. sob*

he's gonna be back

2009-07-10T17:28:00.004+08:00

counting down till tonight when he'll be bac. hmm. but wads the use =( cant c him also. coming tues they deciding on gg JB. zZz(-.-) cus ah bao got badminton tournament. wad a shame. only one day trip. also no much time to see him much. hope my feeling for him will fade asap. this morning an employer call me but i rejected the job offer. hmm. i must be mad to do tat. but im kinda waiting for tiger airways. giv them 1 week to call me. lol* now raining kitty and doggy again. i like this weather; only when im at home =p sipping hot tea by the window.
boy, i miss ur voice.

haw par villa and lim chu kang jetty

2009-07-10T02:35:00.015+08:00

one day trip ard singapore!

2009-07-10T02:06:00.007+08:00

jus came back home. lol* had heaps of fun today! met up with jason, jus and ah bao at 9am for fishing at lim chu kang jetty. the weather is so fine but after a few hours it started drizzling =( but we still dilly dally packing our things den head back to jason car. he drove us to lck cemetery for a stroll. lol* sudden change of event.
lots of uphill and downhill and it's difficult to travel so we head to west coast market for our lunch. jus' parent stall was over there too. so we went over to say hi. =)the rain stopped after an hour and we decided to visit haw par villa. hahahah. i rmr visiting it when i was young with daddy mommy and sis. all the things remain unchanged thou; still kept in gd condition..
took lots of photos and went further in to explore ten courts of hell. felt creepy once we stepped inside. but i wasn't much bothered by it as i've never done any wrong thing. those who thot they can get away from committing sins; in fact, they cant. just tat the time for retribution isn't right yet. anyways, my conscience clear.
afterwards, we went to jurong safra lan to play left4dead!! omgawd! it's nerve wrecking luh. so exciting but so fun^^ my fren, jus felt like vomiting after the mission complete. hahah. jason den drove us to his hse and we played MJ. sian* dun really like this game and especially when they play with money. i hate gamblings but they respect me so we played at 20c per game. winner with most asset buys dinner!
last trip for the day; jason drove us to yishun dam. cus it's nearer to my hse as they all live ard west. we ate ice cream there and enjoy night breeze. hurhur* played with cards like dai di and bluff etc. finally we were all dead beat and he drove me home. hahah8 thanks to jason i can save my cabby fare. cant wait to look forward to next outing!
P.S: tc must be there too! ^^

fishing at lim chu kang jetty tmr!

2009-07-09T02:57:00.005+08:00

hahah. tmr meeting jus and bao for fishing at 9am yet im still here blogging into the wee hours. hmm. so far i hasn't been smoking for 10 hours. way to go! gambatte~ lol* tmr my frens gonna be suprise. it's real difficult. now my addictions are creeping into me. will i give up to the temptations marh? hopefully not luh. i'll think of xuan when i feel like smoking. she'll be watching me.
hais* just now on msn group chatting with tc, jus and bao i keep acting nonchalant to him. now my heart aches a lil. since he's the one who give me the cold shoulders 1st. say wad in vietnam hotel got lots of girls clinging to him. loads of crap. who will believe. he's always lik tat. hahahah. tmr he cant join us for fishing. i bet he's feeling pissed off. lol* anyway. hope he'll come back on 10th morning. helplessly missing him. =(( boy; be back soon. we shall we bicker more.

quit puffpuff for good =))

2009-07-08T19:00:00.004+08:00

hereby, i declare! i, Meredith will quit smoking from this moment onwards. For the sake of myself, my mum, my sis, my gd buddies, my wallet, my health, and for xuan; i know she wont like to see me this way. it all started for undesirable reasons so i'll put a fullstop. hehe* this also mark an end to all my sufferings =DDDD
hmm. btw jas; wrkg for tiger airways told me the HR will contact me within a week's time. minus the weekends, expected date will be ard 16th july. by then i should be back from overseas, if any. in my resume i wrote available date of commencement 24th july. the date tat he gg NS. emm. i some sort of regretting it now. aww* such a long time i'll hav to wait till before i can proceed back to wrkg life.
boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring boring; Boring BOring BORing BORIng BORINg BORING~~ hell bored. =((

damn him =/

2009-07-08T18:40:00.004+08:00

just now was bored; went to do alot of facebook quizzes. came across one; what's ur ideal man? i did the quiz and the results show The business man. den he come along and comment on it.. saying: errr... okay. i think i should run away as far as possible away from u now. my gawd* my fren den came and wrote: stupid TC, u think she wan u huh... boooo... LOL! really thanks for his reply helped me in tat awkward situation. damn him man. seems like he really know i have feelings for him liaos. die! should keep a distance from him once he come back. since he said tat, from his response.. i should keep it low profile. dun wanna be a clown. he still say when gg overseas sia. say run away from me liao still want go out tgt. pissed off* hmm. i'll stop ranting about him. he'll definitely get it from me! a punch or a flying kick? LOLs

.`~gdbye~`. epilogue .`~mylove~`.

2009-07-08T13:17:00.004+08:00

chances there are.. thy overseas trip may be cancelled. hmm. i've done my passport thou. but one of my fren ns letter is here. even if we did travel, it'll be to JB. Johor bahru. -____- no more chance to see him more. hais* now my stomach cramping. awww* taken my medicine but seems like im growing immune to the effects. gawdamn. reading her blog now.. sounds like they are v sweet now. somewhat depressing but still happy for them. he like the baby to be a girl.. just like before. hahahahah. hope it'll be tarista not torenzo. or else he'll be v disappointed. best wishes to them. now my major concern is to find a job. itching to be employed. waiting for tat airline to contact me asap!!! so i can travel to new places all over. meet more ppl; in search of my soulmate.

i miss him; =((

2009-07-07T01:01:00.005+08:00

miss his voice, his laughter.. just now he send me a few msg on msn. but went offline awhile after. sob* thot he's here to accpy me. he said he is bored. stuck in a 4 star hotel and 7-11 is 3km away. lol* wonder y he chose to msg me instead of his 400+ frens on his list. misses me? misses me not. hur hur. guess not. 99.9% no. another 4 more days cant c him. hopefully tmr i wake up i can dun like him anymore. mayb it'll be better. why..? cus i know this gonna be another unrequitted love. my fren told me he said he could sense tat i've feelings for him. probably this is the reason why he is backing off. if my love is reciprocated, he wont do nth about it. time for me to wake up. hahahahah. hahahah.. thinking back on those days.. why he lend me his jacket when he himself is shivering cold at night in cptc. why he call me for those small little things. why does he tell me about his life and his matters. why he wan to meet up with us for kbox spend $26 for just an hour when he has other activities going on later? why he wan to spend $13 cab down all the way from jurong west to woodlands to meet me up for lunch for jus an hour? some i dun really hav an ans. too free? too rich? or he just take me as a gd fren? i really dunno. his actions for me, it's really sending the wrong signals to me. anyways.. i will just let things go naturally. the last time we meet up will be our last overseas trip. if there is no advancement on his side. i'll just let this stay hidden. `~ahiddennote~`

my heart doesn't ache anymore

2009-07-06T17:36:00.003+08:00

been to their blog to read about her post. somewhat my heart doesn't feel the same anymore. well. i know i'll be able to make it alone. tat's wad my frens always told me; strong girl. i'm not made strong, jus tat i dun hav ppl by my side to comfort myself when im breaking down. i told myself i can only depend on myself. no ulterior motives or taking advantages whatsoever.

reading about her talking about me. i wanted to answer her back. i really dun hate her. she just dun understand me but she thot she does. recalling back to wad my ex has told me. she say i'll continue waiting for him.. but tat's wrong. for me.. once the feelings has gone, i wont turn back. yeah, tat's me. part and parcels of life i guess. if i never let go and move on, i wont know whats waiting for me along my lifepath. heard from a fren of mine, which is a miracle tat we came to know; he told me she once committed suicide cus of her ex. suicide has nv been a alternative for me. it's just a cowardy way to escape from reality. i chose to face it, everything. go ahead, heaven try all ur might to struck me with more misfortunes. afterall it'll make me undestructible. =)

deep in my heart, i dunno wad i want. no goals in life. no love, no nth. gd or bad. depends on how each person decipher. nothing can either be great and peaceful, or lonely. let me enjoy this moment of peace while another challenge arrive. lol* i wonder if any guys were to meet me, wad will their reaction be? intimidated? perhaps. if one day i were to fall from a great height, and couldn't stand up anymore.. i may need someone. well, tat's jus my perception. no one will approach me. stop dreaming of any prince charming. fairy tale doesn't exist.

found two new jobs

2009-07-05T21:29:00.003+08:00

i've quitted my job at G2000. reason? nth in particular. jus dun wish to continue. hahah* tat's me. leading a carefree life. but i can only start after my oversea trip. chill out 1st den start work. lol* tmr gg down to lavender to make my passport. my gawd. i actually lost my old one T.T my baby photo; so so cute one. hahah. hate shifting house. =(( all my things are gone. later i'll ask my mum to help me find =D eating my fried rice now. yummy. one of my mummy's speciality. ^^ sian sian sian lehh. my frens still not yet decide whre to go worhh! dunno is KL or JB or Bali @@ actually i prefer Genting. =(( but my fren go there many times liao. sobsob*

really an idiot.

2009-07-05T01:15:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder y am i ruled by my heart and not my brains?! wad are my brains for! my gawd* cant believe im really falling in love with him. ouh pleasseee. might as well embrace my single hood now. *in the process of brainwashing him from my memory* ok! tada* time to sleep. zzzz(-.-)

hidden note

2009-07-04T23:18:00.006+08:00

set out for sentosa today; so happy cus i'll hav another chance to c him ^^ i reach earlier and him too. so we walked ard harbourfront centre and vivo. hahah* he's really cute luh. 1st time i see a guy enter a beauty and perfume shop.. lol really treasure every moment with him. jus now while playing netball by the beach i keep making mistakes and got elbowed and hit on the head by the ball cus im deep in thots. wondering y sometimes he treats me so well and sometimes he can jus ignore me. hmm. he dunnoe my feelings for him; neither should he know too. dun wanna lose a fren again. jus lik before, when i confessed to another guy; earlier in my post last month. all didn go well. hais* sad tat he had to leave for dinner with his other frens. im listless the moment he left. now.. i dun hope for anything. i jus wish he can live happily. he'll be leaving for vietnam 3 days later. sob* wish he'll be safe. after he's back all of us will be gg overseas! really looking forward to it. Boy, when will u start noticing me?

sentosa todayy

2009-07-04T23:15:00.005+08:00

silence and nth else

2009-06-27T23:29:00.005+08:00

everything seems bleak now.. dun feel like carrying on with this sucky life of mine. if not for my mum.. i'll be long gone. who can i head to when im on the verge of breaking down? i dunnoe. nobody cares anyway..

sad=( one by one they left..

2009-06-25T02:14:00.004+08:00

jus got the news tat my fren, yanna had decided to leave Wingtai.. previously was effa.. followed by emma and now., she's leaving too. Our CRO course is getting lesser and lesser people.. initially i tot of leaving too. but dun wanna pay the break bond fee. it's 3k =X plus im still heavily in debt to my dad. hais* spend too much of his money liao. anyways.. it's gd to know tat they hav better job offers.. best wishes to them luh.. but.. pls! no more leavers for gawd sake! =((

disappointment =(

2009-06-24T19:20:00.004+08:00

my colleague; jie ting born on same day same month as me.
omg* ytd ktv was a bore. such a big company yet they only book 3 small rooms. =.= i din even get a decent place to sit and only sang a few songs. waited so long luh. @.@ well, there was a pool table but those aunties.. so so eager to play. lol* literally speechless by their 'awesome' poses. tat nite, i saw many colleagues from other outlets and some bosses. and yea, i guessed rite. they all came up to me; bomb me with qns. but not regarding work luh. luckily* cus tat morning got MSP came to our shop. T.T and i was the one serving him... rawrrrrrrr* plus i din provide him with the high standard service company required. i only got to know when the opposite G2 blu came over to tell us.. they know cus they receive a phone cal earlier and suspect got MSP. well, i hav my doubts. but sounds so convincing.. if wad they say is correct den jiat lat. sure kena nagg by stanley; my DOM. snivel* wad to do? suay luh. =((

yays~! ktv tmr =)

2009-06-22T21:18:00.002+08:00

hahahs! looking forward to tmr nite ktv with my company. dunno how it'll be lik thou =/ cus im new, jus hope the bosses dun question me too much. rawrr* tmr still on morning shift lehh, siann.. but can go off at 7.30 liao! the event ends at 12am; think wont be staying long also, wed still got course early in the morning, 9am. zZzZz(-.-) plus! after 12am still need cabby hm. month end liao, will be broke =( for the next 2 weeks, i wont be on the same schedule with my clique. sadded. mus be my in charge see us talk too much liao, she jealous. lol* anyways, hope tmr turns out great!

我要幸福.幸福

2009-06-21T00:48:00.005+08:00

♥在錯的時間遇上錯的人，是一種荒唐．

♥在錯的時間遇上對的人，是一種無奈．

♥在對的時間遇上錯的人，是一種傷心．

♥在對的時間遇上對的人，是一種幸福．

i appreciate every single thing tat happened to me as i believe they happened for a reason. i hope fate will bring us tgt.. ^^